This is the thread where we talk about our feelings.

[DiggerDude]

I'm feeling okay, how are you feeling?

[Silverfox]

How are you feeling?

These really deep conversations are so...so...cathartic.

[priceyfatprude]

I'm feeling rashy & burnt.

I am feeling like I want to hire a maid/cleaning lady. It's only $20/hour & someone I would trust, but I don't think I make *that* much money.

[T.I.P.]

my eyes are itchy

[brightpearl]

I feel a hot bath coming on.

[trisherina]

my eyes have leakage issues

[Tunesmith]

I can feel my sinuses filling up with snot!

Not expecting any kisses from the girlfriend, today :(

[Veruki]

I feel tired, sleepy and lazy.

Oh... and I feel a splinter ing my toe.:(

[brightpearl]

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[zero]

I can feel my sinuses filling up with snot!



my feelings were hungry ness but then i read this toast of tunes' and now my feelings are sick ness

[Marcus Bales]

This must be the Manly Thread.

[Tunesmith]

my feelings were hungry ness but then i read this toast of tunes' and now my feelings are sick ness

We could start an entire dieting program!

I personally would be happy to share appetite-suppressing factoids.

My goiter's acting up again! time for a draining...

Note: I don't have a goiter.

[brightpearl]

This must be the Manly Thread.

OH! Then I'm wearing the wrong underwear.

[T.I.P.]

There is no need for a Manly thread.

Men have no need to talk amongst themselves.

[Marcus Bales]

Relationships
Dave Barry

Contrary to what many women believe, it's fairly easy to
develop a long-term, stable, intimate, and mutually fulfilling
relationship with a guy. Of course, this guy has to be a Labrador
retriever. With human guys, it's extremely difficult. This is
because guys don't really grasp what women mean by the term
"relationship."

Let's say a guy named Roger is attracted to a woman named
Elaine. He asks her out to a movie; she accepts; they have a pretty
good time. A few nights later, he asks her out to dinner, and again
they enjoy themselves. They continue to see each other regularly, and
after a while neither one of them is seeing anybody else.

And then, one evening when they're driving home a thought
occurs to Elaine, and, without really thinking, she says it aloud:
"Do you realize that, as of tonight, we've been seeing each other for
exactly six months?"

And then there is silence in the car. To Elaine, it seems
like
a very loud silence. She thinks to herself: Geez, I wonder if it
bothers him that I said that. Maybe he's been feeling confined by our
relationship; maybe he thinks I'm trying to push him into some kind of
obligation that he doesn't want, or isn't sure of.

And Roger is thinking. Gosh. Six months.

And Elaine is thinking: But, hey, I'm not so sure I want this

kind of relationship, either. Sometimes I wish I had a little more
space, so I'd have time to think about whether I really want us to
keep going the way we are, moving steadily toward. . . . I mean, where
are we going? Are we just going to keep seeing each other at this
level of intimacy? Are we heading toward marriage? Toward children?
Toward a lifetime together? Am I ready for that level of commitment?
Do I really even know this person?

And Roger is thinking: So that means it was . . . let's see .

. . February when we started going out, which was right after I had
the car at the dealer's which means . . . lemme check the odometer . .
.Whoa! I am way overdue for an oil change here.

And Elaine is thinking: He's upset. I can see it on his
face.
Maybe I'm reading this completely wrong. Maybe he wants more from our
relationship, more intimacy, more commitment; maybe he has sensed --
even before I sensed it -- that I was feeling some reservations. Yes,
I bet that's it. That's why he's so reluctant to say anything about
his own feelings. He's afraid of being rejected.

And Roger is thinking: And I'm gonna have them look at the
transmission again. I don't care what those morons say, it's still
not shifting right. And they better not try to blame it on the cold
weather this time. What cold weather? It's 87 degrees out, and this
thing is shifting like a garbage truck, and I paid those incompetent
thieving bastards six hundred dollars.

And Elaine is thinking: He's angry. And I don't blame him.
I'd be angry, too. I feel so guilty, putting him through this, but I
can't help the way I feel. I'm just not sure.

And Roger is thinking: They'll probably say it's only a
90-day
warranty. That's exactly what they're gonna say, the scumballs.

And Elaine is thinking: Maybe I'm just too idealistic,
waiting
for a knight to come riding up on his white horse, when I'm sitting
right next to a perfectly good person, a person I enjoy being with, a
person I truly do care about, a person who seems to truly care about
me. A person who is in pain because of my self-centered schoolgirl
romantic fantasy.

`There's no horse'

And Roger is thinking: Warranty? They want a warranty? I'll

give them a warranty. I'll take their warranty and stick it . . .

"Roger," Elaine says aloud.

"What?" says Roger, startled.

"Please don't torture yourself like this," she says, her eyes
beginning to brim with tears. "Maybe I should never have . . . Oh, I
feel so . . ." (She breaks down sobbing.)

"What?" says Roger.

"I'm such a fool," Elaine sobs. "I mean, I know there's no
knight. I really know that. It's silly. There's no knight, and
there's no horse."

"There's no horse?" says Roger.

"You think I'm a fool, don't you?" Elaine says.

"No!" says Roger, glad to finally know the correct answer.

"It's just that . . . it's that I . . .I need some time,"
Elaine
says.

(There is a pause while Roger, thinking as fast as he can, tries to
come up with a safe response. Finally, he comes up with one that he
thinks might work.)

"Yes," he says.

(Elkaine, deeply moved, touches his hand.)

"Oh, Roger, do you really feel that way?" she says.

"What way?" says Roger.

"That way about time," says Elaine.

"Oh," says Roger. "Yes."

(Elaine turns to face him and gazes deeply into his eyes, causing him
to become very nervous about what she might say next, especially if it
involves a horse. At last she speaks.)

"Thank you, Roger," she says.

"Thank you," says Roger.

Then he takes her home, and she lies on her bed, a conflicted,

tortured soul, and weeps until dawn, whereas when Roger gets back to
his place, he opens a bag of Doritos, turns on the TV, and immediately
becomes deeply involved in a rerun of a tennis match between two
Czechoslovakians he never heard of. A tiny voice in the far recesses
of his mind tells him that something major was going on back there in
the car, but he is pretty sure there is no way he would ever
understand what, and so he figures it's better if he doesn't think
about it. (This is also Roger's policy regarding world hunger.)

The next day, Elaine will call her closest friend, or perhaps
two of them, and they will talk about this situation for six straight
hours. In painstaking detail, they will analyze everything she said,
and everything he said, going over it time and time again, exploring
every word, expression and gesture for nuances of meaning, considering
every possible ramification.

Meanwhile, Roger, while playing racquetball one day with a
mutual friend of his and Elaine's, will pause just before serving,
frown, and say: "Norm, did Elaine ever own a horse?"

We're not talking about different wavelengths here. We're
talking about different planets, in completely different solar
systems.

Elaine cannot communicate meaningfully with Roger about their
relationship any more than she can meaningfully play chess with a
duck.
Because the sum total of Roger's thinking on this particular topic is

as follows:

Huh?

But the point I'm trying to make is that, if you're a woman,
and you want to have a successful relationship with a guy, the No. 1
Tip to remember is:

1. Never assume that the guy understands that you and he have a
relationship. The guy will not realize this on his own. You have to
plant the idea in his brain by constantly making subtle references to
it in your everyday conversation such as:

* "Roger, would you mind passing me a Sweet `n' Low, inasmuch as we
are have a relationship?"

* "Roger, inasmuch as this plane in crashing and we probably have only
about a minute to live, I want you to know that we've had a wonderful
53 years of marriage together, which clearly constitutes a
relationship."

Never let up, women. Pound away relentlessly at this concept,

and eventually it will start to penetrate the guy's brain. Someday he
might even start thinking about it on his own. He'll be talking with
some other guys about women, and, out of the blue, he'll say. "Elaine
and I, we have, ummm. . . We have, ahhh . . . We . . . We have this
thing."

And he will sincerely mean it.

-- Dave Barry

[rmr]

i'm feeling wonderful today - thank you for asking

[zero]

why come you're feeling that way?

[rmr]

warm friendship bonds always make me feel wonderful and stuff

also employee coworkers have stopped being overly excited about one another

there is peace in my world

[zero]

yes but will it be a lasting peace?



notice i am speaking in a CURRENT AFFAIRS way;)

[rmr]

are we talking maury povich current affairs way?

[zero]

that's a very goof point


real nice debatin' here with ya ol' buddie

[rmr]

i disagree and i'm not telling you why

[zero]

it's to do with feelings though i bet

[rmr]

how are your feelings today?

[zero]

my feelings are warm. roughly about the same warmth as going into a kitchen with underfloor heating pipes after sawing some planks of wood

[rmr]

i think i need more information than that

[zero]

my feelings are warm to about the same warmth that you get when you've got a thermal vest on under your shirt and it's made out of 100% pure wool from a special merino sheep that can only be found half way up a mountain in new zealand and then you have to run to the station or you'll miss your train






.

[Jaime]

I'm in a very good mood today, and this is how I feel. :D

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[harrier]

I feel left out by zero and rmr :(

[rmr]

^^ no feel HOT HOT HOT!!!

[Jack Flanders]

I'm in a very good mood today, and this is how I feel. :D

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Everybody - crank-up your speakers and pour yourself a drink!!!! Love love love that song!!!! Now I'm in a good mood!!! Thanx Jaime!!!

[zero]

I feel left out by zero and rmr :(

i feel remorse

[harrier]

I feel better

[Tunesmith]

I can feel the Benadryl taking effect. :)

ahhhh.....

[T.I.P.]

i'm weary and content

[lukkucairi]

oh buster, how I've missed you!

my mac is in a mood, and now I am too. time to rest the CPU and get my ass out into the fresh, allergen-filled air :)

[Hyakujo's Fox]

slot back into the dark garage
engine and radio yield to silence
only then did the feeling come

[rmr]

i feel remorse


what he said

[zero]

your are feeling remorse today rmr? why come you are feeling remorse??

[craig johnston]

i have felt happy, sad, confused, annoyed, relieved,
excited, bored, curious, tired, enervated, randy, dull,
blessed, cursed, positive, lonely, overwhelmed,
enthusiastic, creative and grateful all in the last hour.
looking forward to the next one.

:)

[Audreyvgs]

Boy I needed that Dave Barry thing today. If women are from Mars, my husband is like 14 systems farther away than Venus. HOly freaking god.

[auntie aubrey]

that great stuff
that great stuff
that stuff makes me feel

feel



happy.

[lukkucairi]

I feel hurt.

[trisherina]

Once upon a time, a donkey fell in a well. The farmer heard him braying in there and decided that since it was an old dry well, he'd just fill it in and that would be that. So he started shoveling in dirt. The donkey was quiet for a while, and then began to bray loudly and thrash about, as though recognizing his predicament. Then suddenly there was silence.

The farmer knew that the donkey couldn't possibly be buried yet, so he peeked into the well. The donkey was standing atop a mound of dirt. He shoveled more in, and the donkey shook himself and then clambered up to the top of the pile again, and waited expectantly.

Bit by bit, the farmer shoveled and the donkey climbed, and eventually the donkey was freed from the well.

The moral of the story is: if someone is throwing dirt on you, shake it off and keep going. It's the way to a better place.

P.S. There's another part of the story, where the donkey emerges from the well and bites the farmer who subsequently dies of a horrible, horrible septicemia, but that can wait. :)

[Jack Flanders]

Yeppers!! Dirt=shit=good deeds.

[lukkucairi]

trisherina

you speak the truth. however, til the donkey gets out of the well, he has to deal with shit raining down on top of him, no?

enough to put any donkey in a foul mood. but better than being trapped in a well without benefit of opposable thumbs.

[trisherina]

There ya go. Now climb the hell out, Eeyore.

[Hyakujo's Fox]

oh my god vegemite on cruskits feels horrible in my mouth!

[lukkucairi]

There ya go. Now climb the hell out, Eeyore.

well throw some more shit my way, farmer gal!

;)

[Anna]

grows wings

[T.I.P.]

oh my god vegemite on cruskits feels horrible in my mouth!

now i have the confirmation that you are indeed australian

[Odbe]

"What doesn't kill us only makes us stronger... and gives us post-traumatic stress disorder."

[craig johnston]

now i have the confirmation that you are indeed australian


i know. it's such a disappointment. imagine how he feels though....

:(

[Hyakujo's Fox]

now i have the confirmation that you are indeed australian

I could be visiting...


imagine how he feels though....

bonza!

[brightpearl]

I feel more like I do now than I did a minute ago.

[Tunesmith]

I feel more like I do now than I did a minute ago.

Duuude...that's like...heavy. :cool:

[lukkucairi]

drink some water, it'll help!

I feel itchy :rolleyes:

[craig johnston]

I could be visiting...

visitors don't eat vegemite.

could be worse, you could be english!

:eek:

[Brynn]

I would try vegemite if they only sold it here. And I have a feeling that I would like it. I feel hungry for vegemite.

I feel amazed and grateful, but I'm also tired of feeling that way all the time. Dull and expressionless might be a nice vacation.

[Odbe]

I feel Jewish.

[Tunesmith]

I feel Jewish.

How so, Odbe? :confused:

[craig johnston]

I feel hungry for vegemite.

no no! you mean marmite! not the same thing at all

now repeat this mantra:

marmite good
vegemite australian
marmite good
vegemite australian
marmite good
vegemite australian
marmite good
vegemite australian

until you float off into nirvana etc.

:)

[Odbe]

Because they can't be at home even in their own country. I was born in Australia but my ancestors' people committed atrocities against the land's indigenous people, and even today they continue to be mistreated behind the scenes. How can I ever feel at home in my own land?

[craig johnston]

eat some vegemite.

you can't take responsibility for the actions of your ancestors.
we'd all be going around doing penance forever if that were the case.

:)

[lukkucairi]

all this talk of belonging to countries is overrated anyway :p

I agree with craig: have some vegemite. and then go be nice to the next person you meet :)

[lostsadie]

Marmite recipe:

2 pieces of good wholesome nutty bread
2 teaspoons of marmite
4 oz. of Vermont Sharp Cheddar Cheese; white sliced thickly
1/2 of an Avocado sliced

Thinly layer Marmite (Vegimite will do in a pinch) on to two pieces of Bread. cover both pieces of bread with cheese. toast in toaster oven or real oven until bread is toasted and cheese begins to melt. place slices of avocado on top. Enjoy.

This is my personal favorite snack.

[T.I.P.]

i hate working sundays. Especially when working is not working. :(

[Odbe]

all this talk of belonging to countries is overrated anyway :p

Yeah, better to travel the world.

[brightpearl]

I'm feeling a little woozy.

They're cute. This is what they look like:
http://toptropicals.com/pics/garden/05/fruit/6366.jpg
They like to be scratched behind the..erm, tentacles.

[brightpearl]

I feel like going out.

Piffle.

[lukkucairi]

I feel the need to scratch an itch on my brain. can any one recommend a proper tool?

[T.I.P.]

that thingy they use in "House" to do lumbar punctures would probably work

[auntie aubrey]

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/6/66/My_lobotomy-howard_during_full.jpg

[Jack Flanders]

A nice soft rake. :)

[Anna]

http://sfbaysailingpix.com/_look_.jpg

[Hermione]

I feel like a slacker. Haha. This is probably the first time in my life I have ever felt like this.


It is not a good feeling.

[lostsadie]

http://i140.photobucket.com/albums/r6/stippitt/cloud.jpg

I feel a bit flighty today...

[brightpearl]

Someone just withdrew from a class I teach because she "found out" about my religious affiliation.

I feel kind of sad about it. It must hurt to be that afraid.

[zero]

och no! it's pientology, isn't it? you're a pientologist!

[brightpearl]

As much as I love pie and science, it isn't anything to do with either of those things. :p

[craig johnston]

I feel like a slacker. Haha. This is probably the first time in my life I have ever felt like this.


It is not a good feeling.

you can get used to it, believe me.

:)

[Marcus Bales]

och no! it's pientology, isn't it? you're a pientologist!

I, myself, am a wryentologist

[Frieda]

where's the nolanologist? haven't seen him in a while!

[LeahDear]

i know i was due one, its been years since i was dumped so the odds were stacked against me. However, what really stings is that its also been years since i fell for someone in such a way... oh the fvckin irony :mad:

[auntie aubrey]

Someone just withdrew from a class I teach because she "found out" about my religious affiliation.

mind if i ask?

[brightpearl]

^^I'd prefer to pm you, but your box is full. :D

[T.I.P.]

^ hint: favorite hand sign
http://www.cs.wisc.edu/~kennedy/img/rock_hand.png

[brightpearl]

^^
:D

The cat's out of the bag...TIP and I are Orthodox Druid.

Not to be confused with these hippie freak reform druids.
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Heathens.

[lukkucairi]

will you wave some mistletoe for me, brightpearl? :D

on a totally unrelated note, I feel rather nauseated this morning. where are my ginger chews?

[Stephi_B]

^^
:D

The cat's out of the bag...TIP and I are Orthodox Druid.

Heathens.

Nice! :)
Just have to think about http://www.tescos.ch/miraculix.gif Miraculix :D

After brief excursions to Zoroastrianism and Taoism, I have discovered (actually re-discovered)
http://www.mythencyclopedia.com/images/mlw_0001_0004_0_img0194.jpg
...guess you guess what! Problem is only that this flavour of heathendom is quite crowded with either people serving racism and machismo instead of the gods :( or role-play freaks ;) - one has to look twice!

Someone just withdrew from a class I teach because she "found out" about my religious affiliation.

I feel kind of sad about it. It must hurt to be that afraid.

This student, does she come from a (fundie) Christian background, do you know? Sounds not all to unsimilar to what I heard from a Canadian Wiccan, he even was physically assaulted for his belief :mad:

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Back on topic: Am feeling hot today, not as worse as yesterday though, but why don't we have air-conditioning @ work?!

[harrier]

Oh brightpearl :( that's horrid. I remember in high school, my driver's ed partner asked the teacher to be paired up with someone else when she found out that I wasn't of the dominate religion in the area. The teacher announced it in class and I had to drive alone the rest of the term.

The fear is so irrational.

I'd stay in your class even if you are a heathen! ESPECIALLY if you are a heathen!

[Frieda]

heathens are so 1776, i thought we were all people these days?

[Frieda]

i have feelings right now

no wait

they're gone again

[lukkucairi]

I feel a pricking in my thumbs. where's the something wicked?

[harrier]

I just got a call from my vet. My little naughty kitty braved hell and high water to get a chicken bone last night. I have four cats. The other three can't figure out the basics of the waterbowl. The white one could solve a rubix cube with a blind fold on. Before we got the bone from him, it was gone.

The vet had us watch him over night and gave him an xray today. The chicken bones are... past the point of doing damage shall we say. But they DID find a bullet in his gut :( A beebee... we got him as a feral about a year old and he's been a great cat. I'm sure it happened before we got him as he is indoors only now.

I am feeling a strong desire to take a beebee gun and find someone and shoot them in the gut.

is that wrong?

[brightpearl]

Thanks for the non-religious-discriminating wellwishing, everyone. Just to clarify, I'm the teacher of the class, not a student, so I hafta stay in it anyway. :) Half of why it was a little upsetting is that the student may not go elsewhere to get the information she needs. I don't really think her religion is relevant to the situation -- all of us are capapble of fear and intolerance, regardless of what we think we are.

And, I was just kidding about the Druid thing. I'm actually a voodoo priestess.
http://www.hauntedamericatours.com/voodoo/images/voodoo-mardi-gras-doll.jpg

I did tell her I almost never kill a chicken in class, but she wasn't to be dissuaded.

[DiggerDude]

If you can find live chicken you should bring it to class and pretend you are going to kill it, then don't and tell us how they reacted.:D

[auntie aubrey]

^^I'd prefer to pm you, but your box is full. :D

sorry. i'm running a pyramid scheme out of there.

The cat's out of the bag...TIP and I are Orthodox Druid.

*shrug* my cousin is wiccan, my mother was a reiki master, my aunt has a spiritual guide from ancient egypt, and i'm epicurean. come along, voodoogirl, you're in good company.

more conventionally i'm an atheist so i'm the most hateful of them all. polls show that americans would rather throw their lot in with a wicked priestess than an atheist because at least wicked priestesses believe in SOMETHING. so take comfort knowing that your pupil would likely choose you over me.

signed,
auntie amoral aubrey

[brightpearl]

I was just kidding about TIP being a Druid, too. I have it on good authority that he's a VIP (get it?) at this church (http://www.dogchurch.org/index.shtml).

And I'm not really a voodoo priestess, but I do believe in the power of this website (http://unusualchurches.blogspot.com/).

Oh, and this one (http://zapatopi.net/kelvin/).

In case you find something you like: Plug 'n' Pray (http://www.plug-pray.org/).

[Jack Flanders]

:D :D

[auntie aubrey]

i'm still praying to the flying spaghetti monster, myself.

[Jack Flanders]

I sometimes pray to the yellow flying pillow with corner tassels. It's name is Cord. This came to me in a dream about twenty years ago and I made the mistake in telling some friends about it. Yep - friends never forget. :(

[lukkucairi]

I sometimes pray to the yellow flying pillow with corner tassels. It's name is Cord.

ooh! can I join in? do you have any rituals? :D

[Jack Flanders]

Flying. :)

[Stephi_B]

I don't really think her religion is relevant to the situation -- all of us are capapble of fear and intolerance, regardless of what we think we are.


Aye, you're right! Mainly asked because Xianity is the majority faith in your place. Wonder whether members of other relig./spirit. minorities (who might get their own load of bias or wry looks) could be that intolerant. But after all ignorance (and resulting fear) knows no boundaries... :rolleyes:


I did tell her I almost never kill a chicken in class, but she wasn't to be dissuaded.

:D

[Odbe]

NRUCRD (http://www.redcedars.net/nrucrd/index.htm) for me personally.

But actually I put down Pastafarian as my religion on the national census.

[lukkucairi]

I feel like I'm going to sneeze!

gah!

[craig johnston]

i feel upset.

due to a number of factors, not least of which is berlusconi.

:(

[auntie aubrey]

i feel hungry. bring on the pizza.

[lukkucairi]

I feel like I have something in my hair.

[brightpearl]

^^Hey lukku, I found your ginger chews.
https://www.surfasonline.com/images/products/25320L.jpg

I feel like a natural woman.

[auntie aubrey]

i feel uncomfortable whenever a food item is described as a "chew."

[Marcus Bales]

I feel nothing.

[craig johnston]

nothing will come of nothing, speak again.

[lukkucairi]

I feel like I shouldn't have had that bowl of chili for lunch.

I feel a bit melancholy. must be the beans.

[Brynn]

Aye, you're right! Mainly asked because Xianity is the majority faith in your place. Wonder whether members of other relig./spirit. minorities (who might get their own load of bias or wry looks) could be that intolerant. But after all ignorance (and resulting fear) knows no boundaries... :rolleyes:



:D
I feel sad and frustrated :(
I also feel like saying something else about intolerance and assumptions.

[lukkucairi]

is it just me or are other people also feeling out of sorts today?

I feel like the planets are misaligned or something of that nature.

[Bman]

^ I have to agree, refer to the wtf thread to see why.

[brightpearl]

I feel like an idiot under pressure...I've just remembered I have to come up with 5 short but creative things by 5pm.

I have to be creative *right NOW.*

That never works well for me.
argh argh argh

There, that's 3 syllables right there...

[lukkucairi]

I feel much better today.

anyone else? or is it just friday?

[Veruki]

I always feel better on friday then most days because thursdays is my offical yoga night...

[craig johnston]

^^^
class!

;)

[T.I.P.]

Right now i feel like watching surf movies on a crappy tv in a seaside shack in Bali with a view of the sea while sipping an avocado shake and getting a nice back rub with essential oils from a buxom swedish massage therapist telling me about the beautiful sea tortoise she saw today while scuba diving.

Instead of that, it's Saturday, i'm at the office, waking up from a 20 minute nap under my desk, and i have to get back to work.


* sigh *

[lukkucairi]

I feel murderously wrathful because I think my stupid useless whacked-out immune system is building an allergy to chocolate.

CHOCOLATE.

I'm already allergic to nuts (which I loved), mangoes (which I loved), and cow's milk (which was formerly such a huge part of the tea-drinking ritual which keeps me sane). now chocolate?

This is the same immune system that regularly fails to protect me from the common cold virus. But it goes all out if it registers so much as a part per trillion of oak pollen.

I need a reset button. can someone design an immune-system reset button please?

gah. :mad:

[T.I.P.]

poor lukku :(
look i wurked on some reset button for u:

http://i66.photobucket.com/albums/h253/minimalEntropy/reset.jpg

edit: just press the screen :)

I will do some positive vibing in your direction to make it work this week ;)

[lukkucairi]

TIP - thanks :D

I pressed the screen. we'll see what happens ;)

[craig johnston]

isn't finland in scandewgia?

:confused:

[Tunesmith]

Prom was wonderful.

I realized I could actually dance (something I had never expected :rolleyes:), I had a pretty girl on my arm for almost the entire evening, and I got to spend 4+ hours with some really great people.

But my girlfriend spent the last dance of the evening on the shoulder of the guy who she has admitted she used to have a fairly large crush on. She promised me that it meant nothing to her, but it was really symbolic to me, especially because I left to request one final, romantic slow dance and came back to see her eyeballing her assured ex-crush (who was also her prom date last year)...

I'm feeling kind of dejected now. I spent the entire car ride back staring at my feet. :(

[brightpearl]

^^We've all been there. I wish I could tell you I'm sure that will be the last time. :(

I'm not sure it gets easier, either, although it does lose some of its shock value after awhile.

Sometimes things will come back together after some disruption, and other times they won't, but either way, you will still be there in some form. Also, remember that when people hurt you, it's nearly always something that's going on in their life, and not something about you.

[Odbe]

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/Odbe/CopyofIMGP5924.jpg
:D :D Party!:D :D

[brightpearl]

I moved my marker to Hippie Hollow over on zefrank.org, and it made me feel better.

I'll bet there are frogs there.

And ducks.

[brightpearl]

I had a good time playing with my kiddo most of the day, but now I feel all bummed out and sucky.

Bugger.

[auntie aubrey]

i'm frustrated because i'm not a developer but i'm trying to learn developer tricks so i can put ONE STINKING FORM ON MY WEBSITE but i can't find a tutorial that doesn't assume i'm a developer AND DAMMIT I'M NOT THAT SMART.

okay. sorry. i'm calm. i didn't mean to blow my stack like that. sorry.

[lukkucairi]

I feel sleep-deprived, but pretty happy nonetheless.

[Veruki]

I'm depressed. Everyone around me is getting the things I want without trying.

[brightpearl]

I have a slight but deep connection to some of the people getting pummeled by the hurricane right now, and I feel worried and helpless.
http://www.macduffeverton.com/Modern%20Maya/mayaphotos/fam.jpg

[lukkucairi]

I've been in hurricanes - the Yucatan has my empathies :(

I feel weirdly horribly guilty about being happy and relieved that this hurricane did not hit my in-laws though, because a monster that size is going to fvck *someone* up. I wish it weren't.

[auntie aubrey]

i feel like this board has gotten very slow paced since the recent hullabaloo. i feel like this makes me sad because i enjoyed the patter.

[Jack Flanders]

is anyone else getting cut off after being logged-in for 20 mins.? :(

[Brynn]

It's been doing that to me for months, but I just thought it was my crappy computer.

I feel relieved and grateful that the hurricane passed way way south of my friends in fragile little La Purisima. I'll bet they are getting scoured with rain and lightning, though. Tomorrow, Olivia will be wiping the spattered mud off of all the wooden rungs of her kitchen chairs and throwing buckets of water down the halls, and then sweeping all the dirty water out the door. The chickens might have a few less feathers, but hopefully nothing worse than that.

[brightpearl]

i feel like this board has gotten very slow paced since the recent hullabaloo. i feel like this makes me sad because i enjoyed the patter.

I know there are some folks on vacation...maybe it'll pick back up. :)

[frawsty]

I'm uber stressed today cause I have too much to do yet I'm on the net posting blah!

[lukkucairi]

I know there are some folks on vacation...maybe it'll pick back up. :)

August is always the slow month, y'know?

Apart from the hurricanes, I mean...

[Hyakujo's Fox]

where's that giraffe guy?

[brightpearl]

^on vacation

[zero]

..slow paced ... i feel like this makes me sad ...

your auntie ness, dinna fash yersel - take heart from little uncle moby's one great truth:

♪people they come together♪
♪people they fall apart ...
http://www.flipflopflyin.com/minipops/mp_moby.gif
... we are all made of stars♪
♪people they come together ...♪

[brightpearl]

I feel tired. And slightly blistered in my little toe area. And relieved that the class I went to today won't be too hard.

[lukkucairi]

Hfox - this should clear things up:

http://newsimg.bbc.co.uk/media/images/44072000/jpg/_44072951_giraffes_ap416.jpg

[Earthling]

Today, a neighbor told me that she's felt kind of upset about something that I had said a few weeks ago. I replied to her;
"Sometimes I'll say things that might insult you. Sometimes I might say things to compliment you. Please don't hang onto either one, for neither is forever."
I heard myself say this to her, and I thought that it was such a profound thing, that it must of been said before. Yet surely, I was proud that I was sincere about it.

[lukkucairi]

I feel like a towel.

[randy]

I feel wet.

[Hyakujo's Fox]

Hfox - this should clear things up:

http://newsimg.bbc.co.uk/media/images/44072000/jpg/_44072951_giraffes_ap416.jpg

yes, well maybe the face licking is a little more than I wanted to know...

[brightpearl]

^Yeah, I thought I knew where he was, but now I'm confused as hell. :confused: :D

[seebe]

Today, a neighbor told me that she's felt kind of upset about something that I had said a few weeks ago. I replied to her;
"Sometimes I'll say things that might insult you. Sometimes I might say things to compliment you. Please don't hang onto either one, for neither is forever."
I heard myself say this to her, and I thought that it was such a profound thing, that it must of been said before. Yet surely, I was proud that I was sincere about it.
Earthling, I don't know if it's been said before, but it is eminently profound. :)

[brightpearl]

I'm TIIIIIIIIII-red.

[1shkamina]

I feel elated due to mention of the flying spaghetti monster in this thread.

[Large Marge]

I no longer have any feelings. They've all been broken and are out for repair.

[brightpearl]

I feel unmoored.

[Stephi_B]

Somewhat sad, but in a constructive way.

[beckstra]

I think I may have started a relationship. I should have an idea tomorrow. The anticipation is killing me. In the last week I've lost five pounds. Ungh.

[Jack Flanders]

:)

[T.I.P.]

completely burnt out

[brightpearl]

I feel like a banana-oreo milkshake bigger than my head.

[tapanuli]

completely burnt out

http://farm2.static.flickr.com/1425/1271967361_c97a4547a2.jpg

meditate, refresh

I feel like a banana-oreo milkshake bigger than my head.

Milk Dud vibes are emanating from my 5th Chakra.

[Earthling]

I have that I-told-ya'-so smirk
http://i91.photobucket.com/albums/k304/LostSoul_666_/MySpace/ICQFlower.jpg

[brightpearl]

I hate the weekend.

[craig johnston]

why? all those parties, trips to the country, big newspapers.
i love it!

:)

[auntie aubrey]

i feel like my left knee is ruining labor day weekend.

[beckstra]

No. He decided he's either going to move out there or he's going to marry her because he still loves her. I'm not in a relationship. I'm in a friendship where he knows I'm in it, and he would be in it if he wasn't in that. So right now I feel like a lame, lonely duck.

[Odbe]

I feel like my life just went from awe-inspiringly bizzare to HOLY FVCK I MUST BE DREAMING.

[tapanuli]

brain crack expulsion recovery... going to bed... zzzzzzzzzzz...

Is Ze still doing that Digital Media award thing?

[Veruki]

I feel like I'm in high school all over again.

[Frieda]

i feel kind of weird

and hungry too

[auntie aubrey]

i feel like i got too much sun today.

[Tunesmith]

I feel like I'm being simultaneously stalked and ignored. :(

[trisherina]

.

[Jack Flanders]

I bought a new purse today ... big thing for me.

[Jack Flanders]

.

[auntie aubrey]

i feel very silly right now because i've only just discovered that there are oodles of hidden forums on this site that i never knew existed. so i've never played with the forum IDs in the URL, sue me!

it took a troll to illuminate these sections of the site for me. i feel foolish.

[brightpearl]

I feel like my brain is going to come leaking out of my ears.

[tapanuli]

Haven't those geniuses over at MIT invented a BRAINPON, yet?

[auntie aubrey]

i feel like i've gone outside and gotten more sun this summer than the last 10 years combined.

i feel like i should have been smart and worn sunblock at least some of the time, rather than not at all.

but i also feel irrationally proud of my silly set of tan lines. it's like a temporary tattoo commemorating my best summer in recent memory.

[Stephi_B]

Feel empty, cannot look at the likewise empty side of the office that is still Vanya's till this afternoon (well on Monday I will have to move my stuff over there), suppose I will cry a little then when we finally say goodbye (not seeing each other for the next few months or so). Already cried a little yesterday morning when I went buying him a parting gift, oh ****, eyes getting a bit wet again...

[Stephi_B]

Vanya's off now. Am crying like I thought I would (as he knows that I never have tissue handkerchiefs with me ;) he left me his here), am quite sad, but that bloody empty feeling is gone! Started listening to his marvelous mp3 collection which he copied me on my scratch :)

[brightpearl]

Crapweasels.
http://www.businesspundit.com/50226711/images/spilled_milk.jpg

[lukkucairi]

I feel confused!

[Tunesmith]

I feel like there aren't enough hours in the day to do anything worthwile.

[lukkucairi]

I feel the inevitability of life.

[Veruki]

I feel like there aren't enough hours in the day to do anything worthwile.

I feel like that all the time. I wake up wanting to do great things, but some how the day just runs away before I can even begin. Except on days I pay bills. On those days I get a warm sense of accomplishment.

[Tunesmith]

I feel like that all the time. I wake up wanting to do great things, but some how the day just runs away before I can even begin. Except on days I pay bills. On those days I get a warm sense of accomplishment.

Exactly! Maybe I should try paying some bills... ;)

[Tunesmith]

I can't stop thinking about this song.

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[Frieda]

i feel so tired, i wish i could go back to bed and sleep all day!

[trisherina]

I feel good! I knew that I would.

[Pixie Cherries]

I'm feeling grateful for interesting and unique things that are posted on this board.

[tapanuli]

agitated and afraid for her sanity

[lukkucairi]

kind of scattered...

[Frieda]

i feel confused and upset

why the fwk don't they believe that i have an injury? wtf? how on earth am i going to explain my injury to someone that has never seen this injury? how am i supposed to describe an ultrasound image with the injury actually on it, to someone that doesn't believe that this injury has any effect at all?

fwkers. even the aenesthesiology nerd believes me.

[brightpearl]

^Oh, lord. The ignorance of people never ceases to amaze me. Talk about adding insult to injury. :mad:
------------------------------------

I wouldn't have thought it possible to feel this tired and still get out of bed every morning.

Whether I do it again tomorrow remains to be seen. :o
http://photo.net/bboard-uploads/00ACk1-20580384.JPG

[Brynn]

First of all, you will go straight to bed and get plenty of sleep. If you're too stressed or worried to sleep, learn something you like by heart and close your eyes. You'll fall asleep reciting it to yourself, marveling over the words. You may not think of anything else.
For the morning, someone is sending a caramel macchiato (or a favorite nice comfy wake-up beverage of your choice) to you to arrive at the perfect moment - you'll be awakened by it's wonderful warm aroma on your bedside table. You'll look at the ceiling, and feel how comfy cozy warm you are in bed. The sheets are your favorite ones - soft and clean, and you are not waking up under some damp cardboard boxes outside under some freeway overpass like some people are at this moment. You are in your nice dry warm house that you are intensely grateful for. Over there is an object that makes you happy when you look at it.

This morning feels different from yesterday. You are at the center of the wheel of fortune, and not being tossed about out on its rim. Everything that happens today you will handle beautifully and gracefully. You will notice something happen somewhere that's kind of unusual and surprising today, probably around some corner. As soon as you see it, you will know that it is just for you. So you have to get out of bed today in order to find it. Something is evolving.
I'm going to be waking up like that tomorrow, myself. And that's how we'll get out of bed, okay?

[Jack Flanders]

Bless you Brynn.

[lukkucairi]

I feel great love and concern for a friend who's out of touch.

[brightpearl]

http://seawifs.gsfc.nasa.gov/OCEAN_PLANET/IMAGES/squid_whaleskin.gif

[auntie aubrey]

i'm kind of freaking out today.

my puppy has finally gotten all of his adult teeth in so i took all of his puppy-appropriate toys away. all except a nylabone rubber bone that he lost some time ago. last night i heard him chewing furiously on something and initially assumed he was working on a piece of rawhide. a moment later i remembered that he had finished all of his rawhide and we've transitioned him to beef bones. i checked on him just as he was swallowing. between his paws was half of the nylabone.

i looked it up, trying to determine whether i could expect a hellstorm from the front end or the back end but it turns out i wasn't worried enough. apparently these things kill dogs regularly.

the nylabone material gets lodged in the intestine but doesn't show up on x-rays. the largest piece that can be considered safe for swallowing is 1/2". theo swallowed almost 3". and we can't afford thousands of dollars in exploratory surgery right now. like not even a little bit.

so now i'm sitting here, waiting for the vet's office to open so i can call them and find out if there's anything we can do.

[trisherina]

Is it possible he could have swallowed it in smaller bits?

[Frieda]

can you try and make him vomit? that's what we did with the cat when she swallowed a pair of nylons..

you hang in there auntie.. i don't know how much longer you'll have to wait but if it's a long time i can try and call the vet over here-- not that i know anything about dogs but i can try anyway!

it's some kind of non-edible fake bone, right?

[lukkucairi]

sorry aubs :(

I'd say try syrup of ipecac to see if you can get him to vomit it up...

dog intestines are usually pretty sturdy - I've had mine eat sand, rocks, aluminum foil, and underwear - so with luck your pup should be one of the (undoubtedly thousands) who manage to pass the bits of nylabone without incident.

sending good thoughts your way...

[auntie aubrey]

it's some kind of non-edible fake bone, right?

yeah it's one of these:

http://www.echolakepetsupplies.shoppingcartsplus.com/i/Nylabone%20Toys/npuppy.jpg

it's a dense rubbery material meant to be helpful for teething. puppy teeth aren't hard enough to penetrate, but it's not so hard as to be damaging to their mouths. i would have thrown it away except it's been missing for at least a month or more.

i just got back from the vet and we did a series of x-rays. even though plastic doesn't always show on x-rays, a mass as large and dense as a 3" chunk of nylabone would most likely show up simply because of its size and density. there was nothing on the scan. so our remaining concern is that it may have been hiding behind a mass of food in his gut, although they scanned from 4 angles but didn't see it on any of the 4. this hopefully indicates that he chewed before he swallowed. the puppy nylabone looks like compressed particles of rubber, as though it would crumble if you did manage to crush it. so it's possible he chewed it enough to crumble it up before he swallowed.

so basically for the next 24 hours i have to monitor him. i'm parceling out his food a half cup at a time and waiting to see if he vomits. no vomit means no blockage, so that's what we're aiming for.

thanks for the good thoughts, all.

[michaelG]

Feelings, nothing more than feelings, trying to forget me , feelings of LOVE.



I am feeling energetic and under-used.

[michaelG]

i feel confused and upset

why the fwk don't they believe that i have an injury? wtf? how on earth am i going to explain my injury to someone that has never seen this injury? how am i supposed to describe an ultrasound image with the injury actually on it, to someone that doesn't believe that this injury has any effect at all?

fwkers. even the aenesthesiology nerd believes me.

Say it is cancer or something.. in other words LIE.

I am now feeling as if I am going to be judged.

[Frieda]

i just got back from the vet and we did a series of x-rays. even though plastic doesn't always show on x-rays, a mass as large and dense as a 3" chunk of nylabone would most likely show up simply because of its size and density. there was nothing on the scan. so our remaining concern is that it may have been hiding behind a mass of food in his gut, although they scanned from 4 angles but didn't see it on any of the 4. this hopefully indicates that he chewed before he swallowed. the puppy nylabone looks like compressed particles of rubber, as though it would crumble if you did manage to crush it. so it's possible he chewed it enough to crumble it up before he swallowed.

so basically for the next 24 hours i have to monitor him. i'm parceling out his food a half cup at a time and waiting to see if he vomits. no vomit means no blockage, so that's what we're aiming for.

thanks for the good thoughts, all.

sending good vibes your and your puppy's way auntie-- i've had my share of sick pets and it always scares the hell out of me.. *hugs*

[Frieda]

Say it is cancer or something.. in other words LIE.

I am now feeling as if I am going to be judged.

not by me.. i've lied before to be taken seriously-- realised later that it felt like i was lying to myself.. wasn't good either..

[michaelG]

not by me.. i've lied before to be taken seriously-- realised later that it felt like i was lying to myself.. wasn't good either..

I feel less bad now.

I don't like to lie as a rule, but if the lie serves a greater good or righteous purpose it is sometimes necessary. Besides, people that don't believe the truth are intellectually insects so it is not really lying to lie to them so that they think you are telling the truth. IMHO

[lukkucairi]

I feel a sense of impending doom.

[brightpearl]

I just had a conversation that made me feel rotten.

[topcat]

I feel a sense of impending doom.

i hate that feeling. hate it.

[Frieda]

auntie, how's the pup doing?? any sign of the nylabone?

[auntie aubrey]

i think we're probably clear at this point. he's done a lot of doody, more than what was visible on his scans yesterday at the vet. so that's a pretty good indication that there are no blockages. it was a little ugly this morning when he moved some stuff that looked pretty foreign. but, you know, i'm not going to dissect poopy.

his guts have been roiling really loudly all morning. like startlingly loud. i gave him some yogurt that will hopefully help return things to normal. yes, yogurt is just as good for dogs as it is for people!

so aside from the creaks and groans in his belly and the occasional blast of foul odor, he seems to be returning to normal.

[Peregrine]

Bored. Utterly and completely bored. And disinterested. I'd feel stressed and overwhelmed if I weren't so disinterested and apathetic.

I seriously need a new job.

[lukkucairi]

I feel happy for aubs :)

[Frieda]

i think we're probably clear at this point. he's done a lot of doody, more than what was visible on his scans yesterday at the vet. so that's a pretty good indication that there are no blockages. it was a little ugly this morning when he moved some stuff that looked pretty foreign. but, you know, i'm not going to dissect poopy.

his guts have been roiling really loudly all morning. like startlingly loud. i gave him some yogurt that will hopefully help return things to normal. yes, yogurt is just as good for dogs as it is for people!

so aside from the creaks and groans in his belly and the occasional blast of foul odor, he seems to be returning to normal.

good to hear, i'm glad he's getting there :)

[Jack Flanders]

auntie - wonderful news!! in my house it's the chicken bones we have to dispose of immediately because of our dog. and you should see her at Thanksgiving when the turkey comes out of the oven!!!! you'd think I had cooked the damn thing just for her!

[T.I.P.]

happy for auntie's dog :)

[lukkucairi]

I feel pretty, oh so pretty!

[brightpearl]

^that makes me happy. :)

But a group of people that I love is spontaneously combusting for reasons that no one had spoken to me about before now, so I feel confused and surprised and sad.

I also feel pretty sure it will work itself out eventually, although I'm not sure of the form it will take.

[Tunesmith]

I feel guilty for laughing about someone who is really just looking for a friend. It was funny at the time, but now all I feel is human empathy.

I guess it was a way of covering my emotions - the harder you laugh, the less you have to say on the subject.

[lukkucairi]

i feel happy that tunes is using andy goldsworthy as his new avatar :)

[michaelG]

I feel drained yet useless. Useless yet used up.

[topcat]

I feel drained yet useless. Useless yet used up.

thats because you are

[lukkucairi]

I feel drunk.

goddamnit, why isn't it friday yet?

[topcat]

its thursday if that helps

[Frieda]

Found one of my school's tapes-- from a musical:

Even heroes sometimes can't sleep
Nobody around to comfort you
Sometimes you just can't find your peace
Even a hero cries sometimes

And the day grinds through the night
Grinds everything you've seen
Between enormous millstones
With your brain caught in between

The night is meant for the thinking ones
Stuck in a loop, they're forced to think
You think that you're thinking, but you're making no sense
And that's what you keep thinking about, you think

But then the new day arrives
Smell of bacon & eggs on bread
And the sun, the sun, the sun will shine
Gleam on the fork that's in your hand

[michaelG]

thats because you are


I feel like making love to you.

[Anna]

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
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[lukkucairi]

I feel like GEORGE FVCKING WASHINGTON

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opponents beware, opponents beware...

[Klynne]

I feel like I am 16 again, and not in the good, young, way. I feel the emotionally beat down way that only a mother can deliver to her child. Sorry I did not get in touch with you Frieda. The trip was, for the most part, great. My mom making (ok I chose to feel like this) me feel guilty, and like her least favorite child sucked.

I know now why I moved out as soon as I graduated from highschool, and never looked back. I thought this trip would bring us closer together, but it only made me realize why I got out of her home as soon as I did.

No wonder I have decided not to have kids.

O.k. This might be a tad harsh, but I am on the feelings thread. Everything will be fine tomorrow. Thanks for reading my bullshvt.

[Pixie Cherries]

Klynne - ditto. We must have the same script in a small way. Today I was feeling all day like I wish my mother would have at least been a little interested in being a "girlfriend" type mom. But she punished me for trying to share feelings, for having an outlook or opinion. For trying to draw emotionally near. Or for talking more than a few seconds at a time to talk about the things I found fascinating. She rewarded me for disappearing, not making any demands of her and for being that agreeable, supporting "friend" she felt at ease with. I have accepted that she can't understand another way. That little bit I just said took thirty years and a bit of therapy to figure out. I love my mom a lot, but its pretty painful being around her.

So, if it helps, you aren't alone. Sorry for getting on your wavelength. What you wrote helps me to know a few other women also struggle with their own mom issues. It helps me to know I'm not alone.

Pixie

[Frieda]

I feel like I am 16 again, and not in the good, young, way. I feel the emotionally beat down way that only a mother can deliver to her child. Sorry I did not get in touch with you Frieda. The trip was, for the most part, great. My mom making (ok I chose to feel like this) me feel guilty, and like her least favorite child sucked.

I know now why I moved out as soon as I graduated from highschool, and never looked back. I thought this trip would bring us closer together, but it only made me realize why I got out of her home as soon as I did.

No wonder I have decided not to have kids.

O.k. This might be a tad harsh, but I am on the feelings thread. Everything will be fine tomorrow. Thanks for reading my bullshvt.

aw, i'm sorry your trip didn't turn out the way you hoped-- hope you feel better soon! :(

(and pixie cherries too of course, except for the trip part)

[lukkucairi]

Klynne and Pixie, you guys make me feel like I'm not alone.

My mom is pretty problematic. Therapy's helped, but interacting with her is exhausting. I've accepted that she is how she is, but that doesn't make it easier.

[trisherina]

Tony Soprano: This is gonna sound stupid, but I saw at one point that our mothers are... bus drivers. No, they are the bus. See, they're the vehicle that gets us here. They drop us off and go on their way. They continue on their journey. And the problem is that we keep tryin' to get back on the bus, instead of just lettin' it go.

[Klynne]

Tony Soprano: This is gonna sound stupid, but I saw at one point that our mothers are... bus drivers. No, they are the bus. See, they're the vehicle that gets us here. They drop us off and go on their way. They continue on their journey. And the problem is that we keep tryin' to get back on the bus, instead of just lettin' it go.

Excellent quote!

[Klynne]

aw, i'm sorry your trip didn't turn out the way you hoped-- hope you feel better soon! :(

(and pixie cherries too of course, except for the trip part)

Thanks Frieda. It was a good trip, except for the guilt tripping dished out by my mother:) We are ok now.

[Klynne]

Klynne and Pixie, you guys make me feel like I'm not alone.

My mom is pretty problematic. Therapy's helped, but interacting with her is exhausting. I've accepted that she is how she is, but that doesn't make it easier.

Lukkucairi and Pixie, thanks for sharing. It makes me feel better knowing that I am not the only one with issues with my mother. Logically I know there must be millions of women out there with issues with their moms. It is just nice to hear from others that do. I get angry with her, and then feel guilty for being angry.

[trisherina]

Good for both bus and rider, I thought. :)

[lukkucairi]

Tony Soprano: This is gonna sound stupid, but I saw at one point that our mothers are... bus drivers. No, they are the bus. See, they're the vehicle that gets us here. They drop us off and go on their way. They continue on their journey. And the problem is that we keep tryin' to get back on the bus, instead of just lettin' it go.

and sometimes the bus keeps trying to run you over :p

it's OK, we're nimble :)

[Klynne]

and sometimes the bus keeps trying to run you over :p

;) Aint that the truth!

[Frieda]

^ i think it's because you somehow end up in front of the bus.. sometimes i even approach the bus from the front, although i know perfectly well it's going to hit the road again.

odd, huh?

[lukkucairi]

^^ Hey, it's imperative to know when you're walking in the road like a jackass, but don't underestimate the ability of a Mom-bus to also ride up on the sidewalk and take you out when you're minding your own business ;)

Your parents have an unfair advantage when it comes to fvcking with your head, since they're the ones that installed all your buttons. Being able to get enough emotional distance to see the overall pattern - and then being able to stop that pattern from going negative (i.e. avoiding being hit by the bus) - that's not an easy thing to do.

I love my mother very much, but our relationship has always been problematic and ever since I got out of the house I've kept a significant body of water between our respective residences (right now it's the Atlantic ocean). This is kind of a sucky way to avoid being "hit by the bus" so this year I went and got therapy, and I'm beginning to be able to interact with her without always being run over.

It is entirely my responsibility to make sure I don't get run over, but that doesn't excuse the fact that she runs up on the sidewalk to come and get me - completely unprovoked. And she does in fact do this. Disinterested third parties have confirmed this, because it usually happens in places where she knows she'll have an audience. Having that information volunteered - "gee, your mom was really ragging on you" - made it easier for me to see that it's not always just me being a jackass and standing in the road.

I've had to come to terms with the fact that the bus-driver does not have my best interests at heart - but that's OK, that's just how things are. Ever since I made peace with that fact, I can see the trajectory of the bus a lot more clearly, and I'm more able to either influence the direction of the bus when it's in my neighborhood - or to just get the fvck out of the way.

[trisherina]

Well, I don't know if I'd want to use the bus analogy as a cookie cutter. I was impressed, however, with David Chase's ability in speaking through his character to pretty much sum up the work of Donald Winnicott (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Donald_Winnicott) and a long string of subsequent derivatives in a single peyote-induced image!

[Frieda]

i also have a dad-bus.


if someone with 1337 kitchen building skillz0rs could come over i'd be very very happy :(

[lukkucairi]

dang Frieds, I know my way around a bunch of power tools but I'm afraid I'm a lil far away to be of any use :(