This is the thread where we talk about our feelings.

[Frieda]

thanks lukku :)

t was friggin dramatic today-- i decided to do the rest myself

so as soon as i'm able to climb ladders again i'm going to finish it.. probably somewhere next year i think. but that's way better than the dad-bus.

[trisherina]

How about the peyote?

[T.I.P.]

Well, I don't know if I'd want to use the bus analogy as a cookie cutter. I was impressed, however, with David Chase's ability in speaking through his character to pretty much sum up the work of Donald Winnicott (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Donald_Winnicott) and a long string of subsequent derivatives in a single peyote-induced image!

is that in the 7th season ?

the only visions i can remember Tony having are near death experiences, that happen on that strange boardwalk.

gah..

i'm so frikkin' impatient to see the 7th season. Even if it does end in a huge cliffhanger...anybody have a valid torrent file ?


btw i'm familiar with transitional objects and omnipotence, i read a few articles on that recently. Which makes me even more curious to know more about what you are talking about !

[lukkucairi]

I don't know about peyote, but I think it would probably make me feel pretty nauseated... :p

the bus image is a good one - excuse my inordinate extension of it - any metaphor can be stretched to the snapping point. I did have a dad-bus, but he kicked off in 04 and now I have a box of ashes to use as a transitional object.

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I made this memorial for my father-in-law today, and it made me very sad.

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I made this one for the memory of my friend Desiree, and it made me sad as well, though in an uplifted kind of way.

[trisherina]

Yes, T.I.P., from season 7. Cover your eyes til you finally get to see it -- for the longest time it seemed like every second click on a review site brought up someone's weinerish interpretation of the final episode.

The "good enough mother" is a very useful concept -- for the one you have/had as well as the one you want to be or partner with. I think we could all stand a little more "good enough" in our lives.

[Anna]

wish
http://www.wonderbox.com.sg/runaway%20bunny.jpg

wonder
http://www.griefandrecovery.com/motherless%20daughters.jpg

surprise
http://itsmypulp.files.wordpress.com/2006/12/are-you-my-mother.jpg

[brightpearl]

I made this one for the memory of my friend Desiree, and it made me sad as well, though in an uplifted kind of way.

Those are beautiful.

The dog -- hell bent for that frisbee, like it was all there was in the world...
That made me think.

[Frieda]

i feel as far from ok as ever possible and i hope it will go away very soon

[auntie aubrey]

i feel stressed. the kind of stressed where you just want to cry.

i just had my first day of a 2 week trial period with a company that would potentially hire me on full time at the end of the contract. on my very first day less than an hour through the door they were tearing my work to shreds, wondering how on earth i hadn't managed to already craft a successful marketing campaign along with a slogan summarizing their whole business focus that could carry them through all of their communications for the next 2 years. i don't even understand what they DO yet. when i told them their expectations might be a little unrealistic, they informed me, "well yes, we're hoping for a miracle out of you."

i'm stressed because i didn't like them. and i didn't like how they made me feel. but i can't shake the feeling that if i turn them down, there might not be anything better coming along. i'm terrified of saying no. but they treated me in a way that no first-day employee should be treated. but what if it's all i can get?

thus, i feel stressed.

[brightpearl]

^Auntie, if they treat you like that on the first day, I'd be hard pressed to think they'd get any easier to deal with as time passes.

Do this for me:
Sit down, relax your muscles, take a few deep breaths. Imagine that your breathing naturally washes away any tension and stress as it enters and leaves your body. Now, turn your mind to how it felt to stand in that building with those people. Think about how it felt in your belly, and your heart, and behind your eyes.

Now imagine feeling that way every day.

If it's okay with you, stay and see how it goes. Otherwise...

They must know they have something special in you, given what they said to you, and it must be a sinking ship, or they wouldn't be so desperate. You're too good for them. Give 'em the ol' heave ho and get yourself a better date to the prom.

[Klynne]

Lukkucairi,
The tribute to your father-in-law had me in tears. Beautiful, and well done. Thanks for sharing this with us. I am getting ready to see the one to your friend.

I don't know about peyote, but I think it would probably make me feel pretty nauseated... :p

the bus image is a good one - excuse my inordinate extension of it - any metaphor can be stretched to the snapping point. I did have a dad-bus, but he kicked off in 04 and now I have a box of ashes to use as a transitional object.

<object type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="400" height="288" data="http://vimeo.com/moogaloop.swf?clip_id=350477&amp;server=vimeo.com&amp;full screen=1&amp;show_title=1&amp;show_byline=1&amp;show_portrait= 0&amp;color=01AAEA"> <param name="quality" value="best" /> <param name="allowfullscreen" value="true" /> <param name="scale" value="showAll" /> <param name="movie" value="http://vimeo.com/moogaloop.swf?clip_id=350477&amp;server=vimeo.com&amp;full screen=1&amp;show_title=1&amp;show_byline=1&amp;show_portrait= 0&amp;color=01AAEA" /></object><br /><a href="http://vimeo.com/350477/l:embed_350477">Bob's memorial slide show</a> from <a href="http://vimeo.com/user187998/l:embed_350477">lukkucairi</a> on <a href="http://vimeo.com/l:embed_350477">Vimeo</a>.

I made this memorial for my father-in-law today, and it made me very sad.

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I made this one for the memory of my friend Desiree, and it made me sad as well, though in an uplifted kind of way.

[Klynne]

i feel as far from ok as ever possible and i hope it will go away very soon


I hope it will too! I am here for you.

[Klynne]

i feel stressed. the kind of stressed where you just want to cry.

i just had my first day of a 2 week trial period with a company that would potentially hire me on full time at the end of the contract. on my very first day less than an hour through the door they were tearing my work to shreds, wondering how on earth i hadn't managed to already craft a successful marketing campaign along with a slogan summarizing their whole business focus that could carry them through all of their communications for the next 2 years. i don't even understand what they DO yet. when i told them their expectations might be a little unrealistic, they informed me, "well yes, we're hoping for a miracle out of you."

i'm stressed because i didn't like them. and i didn't like how they made me feel. but i can't shake the feeling that if i turn them down, there might not be anything better coming along. i'm terrified of saying no. but they treated me in a way that no first-day employee should be treated. but what if it's all i can get?

thus, i feel stressed.


I can't tell you how many jobs that I have worked since I have been sixteen years old, where the employer expects you to walk in and be "already trained and know their expectations" and berate you on the first day, because you did not do the job perfectly. It is the American way I guess, and it sucks. I have run the gamut from dishwasher, waitress, clerk, and now my grown up career, and it seems whoever I have worked for, wanted me to be perfect on the first day. It has damn near given me ulcers in the past. There are such high expectations in our society. We want shvt and we want it now, and have no patience. I say screw those people that are giving you a hard time. You do what you can do and fvck them if they don't realize they have the best possible person for the job. Wow, I got emotional, but this is the thread to do it on. Don't sweat this crap. Lurves, me

[auntie aubrey]

i think i'm going to finish the contract period, bill them up the wazoo, and then terminate the relationship. they found out that i'm entertaining other options and tried to convince me that i should stop looking. they even dangled this ridiculous carrot out there that, "this position could develop into a VP of marketing role."

call me unamerican, but i'm not that ambitious. i'm going to say bye-bye to them at the end of all of this.

[topcat]

no your not

[lukkucairi]

Klynne, thanks :)

Aubs, stick 'em. You're not unamerican. You're just too smart for them.

Frieds: hugs :)

[Klynne]

i think i'm going to finish the contract period, bill them up the wazoo, and then terminate the relationship. they found out that i'm entertaining other options and tried to convince me that i should stop looking. they even dangled this ridiculous carrot out there that, "this position could develop into a VP of marketing role."

call me unamerican, but i'm not that ambitious. i'm going to say bye-bye to them at the end of all of this.


Right on! Screw them, they suck.

[Klynne]

My friend's daughter was murdered three years ago. She would have turned 26 tomorrow, and her mom wrote this to her today. If you are interested, there is a website. It is juliaalert.org.

sweet Julia, tomorrow would have been your 26th birthday, and it has been a hard week to be here without you. I look at your picture on the buffet of you when you were 4 years old, your big smile, your beautiful face and I cry because I will never get to look into your eyes again. That is just one of the thousands of things tim took from this world when he took your life, not just from me, but from your boys and many many more. one of the worst things is that he has no remorse, no regret to take a life, especially one as wonderful as yours. WHAT A COWARD! A SLIMY PIECE OF GARBAGE! HE WILL PAY FOR THIS EVIL THING HE HAS DONE! he will not be allowed to continue spreading his sick filth on others, he IS going to be stopped, thank God! at least we have that knowledge that Alex will be safe from him and his sickness. Though it has taken some time, and he has been free to do more harm, he is going to be stopped. we will cherish the moments we had with you, we will share your memory with your boys and make sure they know you, through us and all who knew you. Your family and friends, wish you a Happy Birthday, knowing you are with God, in joy and comfort. Not the torture you lived with the evil sick coward the last few years. All the times you called, crying, begging for help, pleading for someone to come get you and your boys away from him, so afraid. Not beleiving it would be too late if you waited just one more day, one more week. It was too late, he took your life, your breath, tore your family apart, and does not even feel the loss. He will feel the pain of being stopped. God does not like evil, Tim is evil.

[Stephi_B]

Feel like a sheet of paper that fell in a mud puddle and is not yet dried enough for scraping off the dirt.

[Angry Kid Hoyt]

While trying to find a video that expressed how truely crappy I felt this morning, I happened upon this gem...

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and now, I AM feeling this!

[auntie aubrey]

^ i expect nothing but anger from you in the feelings thread.

[Angry Kid Hoyt]

Grrrr...snarl...grrrr...
<a href="http://img220.imageshack.us/my.php?image=beadk3.jpg" target="_blank"><img src="http://img220.imageshack.us/img220/6388/beadk3.th.jpg" border="0" alt="Free Image Hosting at www.ImageShack.us" /></a>

*sigh*

[T.I.P.]

i feel chewed up and spit out

[brightpearl]

Sorry, with all that goo on you in the costume thread, I mistook you for biscuits and gravy. :o

[brightpearl]

I feel really, really tired, but resigned to feeling tired.

[Frieda]

i feel freaked out because i was really sick yesterday and i just now realised that even though i didn't feel like dying, i very well could've died if i hadn't dropped into the doctor's office in time. and i also feel a little scared because the stuff is still in my bloodstream and my throat is still swollen and i have a horrid headache and sore muscles too. :(

there ya go. now i feel all embarassed :o

[T.I.P.]

*hug*

[brightpearl]

hugs are the best antihistamine.
http://www.merck.co.za/uploads/images/1168_epi-pen.jpg

I feel a little scared for you, frieda, so I'm not surprised you feel scared yourself. If you have to try new-to-you drugs with some frequency, maybe you should keep an EpiPen in the house?

good vibes, sweetie.

[Frieda]

thanks guys :o

will make an appointment with the doc next week to review all this and i will bring up the epipen. i'm kind of hoping i don't need one and can manage with the strong antihistamines.. it feels good to have those pills around though!

[brightpearl]

^EpiPens are for acute attacks, when your breathing may be hindered faster than a pill can take effect. Probably most reactions can be managed with antihistamines, but it can't hurt to be prepared...Find out the name of that class of drugs and never take one in it again -- a second attack would likely be more severe.

[lukkucairi]

ack! anaphylaxis is the worst :(

[Frieda]

^ yeah.. i didnt know there was such a thing as anaphylaxis without the immediate shock thing.. i had no idea it could also come an hour or two later!

^^ it's a cox-2 inhibitor in the NSAID class.. but i've never had any problems with NSAIDs.. not even a mild reaction.. doc said it also could've come from the tablet film if i've never had any trouble. i really hope to find out what it is.. because having a pain syndrome and not being able to take painkillers for it sucks!

have any of you ever had an anaphylaxic reaction?

[trisherina]

Heck no, but once I had an allergic reaction (hives) that lasted six months or so, day after day of wheals and papules, all itchier than... itchy. I took prednisone and solu-medrol (another hellbent for leather steroid) IV and PO along with a bunch of ineffective antihistamines to settle the itching to a dull roar. The steroids made me gain about thirty pounds over the six months and there was some debate over what caused the reaction so with that and going off everything I normally take, I was fat slowed and cranky. A year later it was a dim memory, but I won't be taking that drug again.

I don't think you should carry an EpiPen strapped to your nads or anything, but having one around when you are trying a new med would probably be a smart idea -- strictly speaking you can't have anaphylaxis til the second exposure to a thing but people with complex medical conditions rarely know what all they've been exposed to.

[brightpearl]

^^I never have, but my dad has a couple of times. Trish is right...no need to carry it with you the way someone with an allergy to bees might, but the EpiPen would be good to have in the house, especially since you've had a reaction to a common class of drugs that you'll need to take frequently.

[Anna]

http://www.dvc.edu/scholarships/images/happy_dance.gif

[lukkucairi]

^^ seconded :)

[Stephi_B]

i feel freaked out because i was really sick yesterday and i just now realised that even though i didn't feel like dying, i very well could've died if i hadn't dropped into the doctor's office in time.

:eek:

just seeing that

So good you're still here, girl!!! *hug*

[Pixie Cherries]

My brother passed away yesterday and I feel very sad.

[seebe]

Pixie I'm really sorry to hear of your loss. Sending you hugs.

[brightpearl]

^^Oh, I missed that somehow yesterday! So sorry, Pixie! :( There's so little that can be said...My own experience has been that, although the weight of the loss of a close one never leaves you, you do learn to carry it with time. I hope you find that comfort soon.

[auntie aubrey]

i'm so sorry to read that, pc. pearly's right, you do learn to carry it with time. you have an open invitation to PM this complete stranger if you feel like you need to rant to someone who's experienced a similar loss.

it's like AA. i've got my 6 year chip. sometimes it helps to talk to someone who's carrying a 6 year chip, even if (and sometimes especially if) you don't really know them personally.

[Avalon]

PC, I am so very sorry for your loss. I lost my brother in '04..this board helped me through that devastating time. As has been said, you never get over it, but you will get past it. You also have an invitation to pm if you feel the need. My condolences to you and your family.

[T.I.P.]

sorry for your loss :(

*hug*

[lukkucairi]

pixie, my sympathies and hugs

[Stephi_B]

:(

*hugging you* Pixie

[Anna]

after eating three iron bars for dinner, now securely wedged just above the diaphragm, drinking seven cups of the worse coffee in the world, finding a family of raccoons living underneath the sink growling and nothing left to iron, but a dust cloth, I think it's that time of the year to sit back, relax and crack open some Tolstoy.

[Tunesmith]

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[trisherina]

Well, if you don't give it a try, you're sure not going to know. :)

A bit of squeamishness for a young, sensitive, empathic person seems pretty normal to me. From your posts, you also seem goal-oriented, very mature and bright, and well-grounded. I'm going to guess you can use all these traits to trick your autonomic nervous system into behaving -- just use your considerable resources to come up with a workable process to do so, and practice it before you go into your next squeamish-triggering situation. A few experiences of success with it will build on themselves.

[brightpearl]

^Yup. Try not to worry about it, Tunesy; I'd be very surprised if it didn't change as you got more exposure to such procedures. Also, it's one thing when you're watching it done to someone else, and it's another watching it done to yourself. A lot of people aren't bothered by the sight of blood unless it's theirs! I've heard nurses say they can't stand to see their own blood being drawn and such, but that they got used to doing it for other people.

Another thing to remember is that there are lots of fields similar to medicine that you may be more drawn to later...bio research and all.

[auntie aubrey]

If I couldn't even watch my blood being drawn, and started to freak out while getting by chin sutured, then what are the chances of making through medical school?

unless you're planning on majoring in self-administered medical practices, i don't know that you should worry yet. all i'm saying is, i wouldn't equate your personal medical squeamishness with a crippling sense of empathy.

look at it this way, empathy is far too lacking in the medical field. being able to put yourself in your patient's shoes will benefit both you and your patient.

[Tunesmith]

^ thanks, guys...

Yeah, it was way too soon to freak out. I've got years to decide, and who knows what'll happen before then? :rolleyes:

[Frieda]

i feel kind of weird for being at the wrong place and the wrong time, again--

just parked my car on a small parking lot because i had to make a phone call and my headset ran out of juice.. i see two people looking at me and walking away, very slowly, they keep looking at me and i think "scary folks" so i lock the car from the inside.

i fumble with my phone when someone knocks on my window and startles me, so i open the window and this lady asks me to call the police because 45 minutes ago, that car (indicating a wrecked black mercedes) hadn't been there!

so i do.. and drive home.. make my other phonecall and just now receive a phonecall from the police asking me to give a good description of the two people i saw walking away because the car has been used in a pretty bad crime. police guy can't tell me what it was used for but i could hear someone shouting in the background to send 5 cars out to search for those two people!

:eek:

[lukkucairi]

woah! :eek:

[Stephi_B]

^^CSI NL :eek:

[Frieda]

i know! :eek:

[craig johnston]

is there a word for the feeling when someone you are
just about to dump sends you a message saying 'you
are the best'?

:(

[brightpearl]

^"Crapweasels."

[Frieda]

i feel like life has a faster pace than i have and i can't keep up-- running from doctor to doctor and appearing at work in between.. i dont do shit at work anymore.

i got caught in the doors jumping on the train called life-- dragging me along the way-- bruising me-- the cruising train-- either let me off or let me in

[Stephi_B]

a message saying 'you
are the best'?


Mmh, the very same sentence I heard from two bfs shortly before they became ex-bfs, for me a bad omen sentence, but I dunno what it means for you, how deep you're still involved, how sure/ready you are about/for the dumping business... But if you have to dump, best speak kind, but real Klartext.


"Crapweasels."


A cool word, feels very useful, PM me the exact meaning(s) some time :)

[craig johnston]

what's the name for the feeling when you sneeze
just after taking a sip of beer?

may also be crapweasels, but i'm not sure.

[Marcus Bales]

I feel pretty!

[craig johnston]

^^
oh so pretty and gay!

:eek:

[brightpearl]

^you fergot "witty"

...or did you? :D

[T.I.P.]

i think i'm beginning to see it, at last.

http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2142/1936974903_cb50989632.jpg

[brightpearl]

It smells like trees.
http://www.davidparfitt-art.co.uk/images/full/Spring-trees-IV.jpg

[T.I.P.]

aye, it does.

the sweet smell of pine trees is music to my nose.

[Bman]

Big sigh (http://xkcd.com/240/) .

[Jack Flanders]

what's the name for your sneeze
just after taking a sip of beer?
.

BUD

[brightpearl]

I have too much on my plate.

[lukkucairi]

I've been HERE before...

[T.I.P.]

i have the feeling that i'm only aware 1/4 of what is going on right now in my life, and it's going to hit me like a ton of bricks in a few weeks

[T.I.P.]

having taken a one week break, i am finding it VERY difficult to will myself to start working again.

[lukkucairi]

I feel guardedly hopeful.

[auntie aubrey]

my new office environment is driving me to fits of insanity. it's so so soooooooooooo so so quiet. so terribly quiet. everyone is dilligently working and no one really chats and no one ever raises their voice, and it's all computerized and no one needs to make phone calls and IT'S SO DAMN QUIET.

today i became overwhelmed by the need to burst out in hysterical fits of laughter. everything was funny. and the more i tried to tell myself to hold it in, to stay quiet, the funnier everything got. after a while i couldn't even get a cup of coffee without something striking me as so ludicrously absurd that my sides ached from the effort of holding the laughter back.

there's just something about quiet spaces that tickles my funny bone.

before the week is out, i'll be regarded as "that crazy new girl."

knowing that makes the urge to laugh stronger. i think i'm entering a serious psychosis.

[Jaime]

That happens to me sometimes. I used to have to bite my cheeks and try to think of sad things in Science class in high school.

I'm sleepy and amused with the world.

[Frieda]

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHH

I GOT A PROMOTION!! !!!! !!!11! !!!!oneone


and i feel fwking excited :eek: :D :)

[T.I.P.]

congarts Frieda !!! 11 !!un un !!!!

--> gives me a happy for you :) :)

[Brynn]

Congratulations Frieda!!!!:)

[Frieda]

thanky :) :) :)

[brightpearl]

^Hey, karma works! :D

[Tunesmith]

Congrats, Frieda!!

:D

[lukkucairi]

yay Frieds! :D

we got the animations working on the jellydome last night - after 9 months of design and redesign and one or two huge failures - it was so amazing, and it makes me so happy.

what's a jellydome?

post vid when I have it. but be happy for me :)

[Jaime]

Congratulations to Frieda and lukkucairi!

[brightpearl]

This was such an awful day, and yet I just kinda watched it float by.

[auntie aubrey]

the office hysteria is escalating. i fear i am becoming a lunatic. my boss said, "write up a short paragraph bio about yourself and send it to me so i can forward it around the office via email."

that's what her mouth said. my brain heard, "make up some jackass bullshit about yourself that includes references to goggles and the next millennium."

i had every opportunity to rewrite the damn thing. why did i click, "send"? probably because the quiet is turning me quite batty.

[T.I.P.]

the quiet is turning me quite batty.

buy an dummy http://www.binaural.com/bb3.gifhead

go back to a workspace with "normal" noise levels, place the artificial head in the environment. Record 3 hours of ambiance.

Play recording back via headphones when starting to feel batty because of the silence.

[Tunesmith]

I've gotta tell my clarinet teacher I'm stopping my lessons with him. He always talks about me continuing in music, but I just don't feel compelled to.

I'm really nervous, because I've worked with him for almost 6 years now...I just feel like I'm betraying him, kind of. :(

[T.I.P.]

^
i had the same problem with my percussions teacher, when I gave up the idea of being a career musician. Matter of a fact, you message reminds me that I need to get back in touch with him before I leave france...he is a great guy, and i feel bad that i had to sacrifice my classes with him for my work.

There are so many things i abandoned for this dissertation thing - music, friends, entertainment, sports, art...even food, to some extent. And now that it's almost finished, i'm already preparing to leave the country and start over.

I feel excited, yet at the same time strangely detached from everything that has been happening to me lately. :confused:

[brightpearl]

^ and ^^ I think that kind of...what? maybe grief...is normal when you make a big change. Other people grieve it with you sometimes, when it's connected to their own hopes for themselves. And dissertations take up a lot of space. When they're done, it's like the recolonization of a coral reef. It takes a pretty freaking long time for all the flora and fauna to come back, but they will, as long as you provide the proper conditions.

I am making a big change, too, but I'm not worried any more.

I think I saw a butterflyfish this morning. Haven't seen one of those in a long time. :)

[Frieda]

i feel like shouting ARSE ARSE PISS SHIT ARSE really really loud

[lukkucairi]

I feel dreadfully hung over

[Frieda]

^ try saying ARSE ARSE PISS SHIT ARSE really really loud

it helps :p

[lukkucairi]

^ :D

[brightpearl]

I feel relieved that some people I thought wouldn't understand my decision actually do.

[brightpearl]

grooooooaaaaaaaaan

[Frieda]

^ you should try it too-- the secret mantra

ARSE ARSE PISS SHIT ARSE

;) :)

[brightpearl]

^:) Thanks Frieda.
I think all my troubles could be solved with the proper applicaton of a forklift, however.

[lukkucairi]

^ oddly enough, I'm just on my way to the warehouse, and we have forklifts there.

can I help?

[brightpearl]

^You know, you probably can. :)

[Frieda]

i feel very very itchy.

http://img245.imageshack.us/img245/677/allergietest1xw7.jpg

yes, that's me covered in allergy test patches.



i also feel like getting drunk tonight.

[Hyakujo's Fox]

i feel hot and sweaty

and like i can't be arsed with the last six minutes

[Marcus Bales]

I feel hungry, like I didn't eat dinner last night, and haven't eaten breakfast this morning. Wait a minute. I didn't eat dinner last night. I didn't eat breakfast this morning. But I still feel hungry.

[brightpearl]

^^you're going out with the wrong girl, darling.
:D

[Marcus Bales]

If I went out with the right girl, would I get dinner and breakfast?

[brightpearl]

^not you, sweetie -- hfox.
But perhaps you are going out with the right girl, if you've forgotten to eat 2 meals.

[Marcus Bales]

That's what she says, too. And I feel like I got dope-slapped from behind.

[trisherina]

i feel very very itchy.

http://img245.imageshack.us/img245/677/allergietest1xw7.jpg

yes, that's me covered in allergy test patches.



i also feel like getting drunk tonight.

After you light all the fuses. :p

I see no evidence of broccoli!!

[lukkucairi]

^ they cover 'em with bandages in the netherlands? they just came at me with a double-pointed needle here in utah, and didn't bother to cover them up at all!

welts are such fun. yay.

- Marcus, that does sound like the right girl. dope-slapped? that's quality. just remember to eat something inbetween slaps, or you'll fade away to nothing.

I feel like baking myself a gf cake.

[Marcus Bales]

I had a feeling you'd say that.

[Frieda]

^^^ :D
the broccoli is further down.. saddlebag area! :eek:


^^ this test didnt involve needles, they stuck the allergens on my skin, most are creams and some were powders. then they sealed them off to keep them in place for 48 hrs.. they removed the patches yesterday and tomorrow i have to go back to have my back checked for any late skin reactions. the needle scratch test was yesterday, on my arm.

i'm really glad this shit is almost over, i'm going quite insane from all this itching :eek: and the worst thing is-- when they took off the bandages the skin where the bandages were was all red and swollen.. so i'm allergic to hypoallergenic bandage glue :rolleyes: it still itches around those patches. all covered in bright red bumps :eek:

[Marcus Bales]

I feel like going to the store. No no -- don't try to stop me.

[Brynn]

I feel like stopping Marcus from going to the store, just to see what it would take to do so.

[auntie aubrey]

i've just been reading a bunch of archived junk that i wrote over the last several years. i laughed a lot. now i'm feeling like i used to be a lot funnier and smarter than i am now. please don't take that as an attempt to garner a compliment because it's not. what i mean is, i feel like there are holes developing in my brain. i can't remember saying the things i said, and when i look at the things that amuse me the most, i can't imagine wording things in that particular fashion anymore. it's like i'm slowing down and getting weaker at an alarming rate.

scary.

[T.I.P.]

http://img245.imageshack.us/img245/677/allergietest1xw7.jpg

yes, that's me covered in allergy test patches.


that thing is the advent calendar of allergy tests :eek:

I can understand how relieved you are after taking it off..it's making me itch all the way over here !!

[auntie aubrey]

i bought a pair of collectors shoes. collectors shoes, i can't believe i bought something so dumb. i've done all the verification i can and they pass every authenticity test i can find.

but the lingering question, "did i buy fakes" is hounding me. driving me crazy. are my shoes authentic or really amazing chinese reproductions? and if they're that amazing, does the question of authenticity really matter? if they're not authentic, the replication company spent a hell of a lot of money replicating special materials and intricate print work.

but still the question plagues me DID I BUY FAKES?!?!

my husband postulated that they are real, and the real problem is that i can't be happy about anything. maybe he's right. maybe i can't. maybe i'm plagued by this question because i can't let myself be happy about my purchase. after all, i worried similarly about my cuprite rock specimen when i realized that it seemed geographically unlikely that it contained shattuckite.

so maybe that's it. maybe i just can't be happy about anything. maybe the question about shoe authenticity is moot if it passes this many tests. maybe i did buy the world's most authentic fakes. why can't i just shrug it off? or convince myself that they're real in spite of my concerns?

this is going to take introspection.

[zero]

what are the shoes like? as if it matters

[zero]

she proabbly won't reply due to be away out walking around in them

[zero]

some fvckken ridliclyous jimmy choo nonsense abet they are

[lukkucairi]

I feel like BURNING STUFF.

anyone want to join me? we're having a party tomorrow night, special.

[zero]

auntie aubries will likely want to burn them shoes of hers come tomorrow

[brightpearl]

anyone want to join me?

Hellz yeah!
I wrote "doubt" on a little piece of paper on new year's and threw it on the fire. I think it did me some good, might as well burn some more stuff.

I think I want to burn down my bedroom and redecorate. I have my eye on some vintage Japanese Kimono scraps that would make a nice quilt.

[auntie aubrey]

she proabbly won't reply due to be away out walking around in them

they're fake shoes. which means i can't walk in them. fake shoes are like hats.

[auntie aubrey]

they're limited edition underworld/tomato graphics 35th anniversary superstar edition adidas.

http://www.pickyourshoes.com/images/shoes/superstar35_underworld_5.jpghttp://www.pickyourshoes.com/images/shoes/superstar35_underworld_16.jpg
http://www.pickyourshoes.com/images/shoes/superstar35_underworld_14.jpghttp://www.pickyourshoes.com/images/shoes/superstar35_underworld_12.jpg

the strongest argument at this point is that they're supposed to be reflective. only i haven't figured out how to make them reflect. so it seems to me that they AREN'T reflective because there shouldn't be a science to making something reflect if it's reflective.

[brightpearl]

they're fake shoes. which means i can't walk in them. fake shoes are like hats.


:confused:
I can walk in a hat.
hee

Those are cool shoes. You should wear them.
I know!...just develop a fake walk, wholly unlike your real walk, and then you can wear your fake shoes.

[brightpearl]

I am feeling really pissed off right now.

I feel like I need me some shoes like these:
http://www.gadgetvenue.com/wp-content/uploads/2007/09/light-up-shoes.jpg
The red ones. Only no fringe. I am strictly anti-fringe.

I could kick ass in those. And, I'd be able to see in order to take names.

[Tunesmith]

I feel like BURNING STUFF.

anyone want to join me? we're having a party tomorrow night, special.

OH yeah.

I can supply the butane lighters - I've got around 30 in the basement, 'cause my father likes to "be prepared". This usually implies, but isn't limited to having more dental floss, AA batteries, bottles of mineral water, and cans of tuna fish than any normal person could use up over the course of a lifetime.

[T.I.P.]

I feel like BURNING STUFF.

anyone want to join me? we're having a party tomorrow night, special.

it's a shame we don't live in the same neighborhood...i literally have three full trash cans of paper, and 3 more of other crap that I wish i could chuck into a big bonfire and burn the hell out of..

i'm jonesing for some serious catharsis right now ;)

[Marcus Bales]

I feel like asking Brynn to give me my clothes back. I really need to get to the store.

[auntie aubrey]

i feel so guilty.


my shoes are reflective. i just didn't know what lighting circumstances under which they reflect. i discovered said circumstances by accident tonight. now i think i was wrong and they're actually authentic.


BUT I ALREADY LEFT EBAY FEEDBACK ACCUSING THE GUY OF SELLING FAKES.


i feel... i feel... i feel the foot in my mouth.

[T.I.P.]

i'm feeling slightly annoyed about the fact that I conducted myself like a walking cliché today

[brightpearl]

ow ow ow

I'm feeling like I certainly hope I know what the fvck I'm talking about.

[Marcus Bales]

I'm feeling sleepy.

[lukkucairi]

I'm feeling like I had a tad too much wine about four hours ago.

[Frieda]

i feel sick.. flu.. boooo! :(

[lukkucairi]

^ :(

I'm feeling like I can DO this. Maybe.

[brightpearl]

You know how, if you bring a deep-sea fish to the surface, the sudden and dramatic reduction in pressure causes all their cells to explode and they dissolve from a creature of stunning complexity into a puddle of indescriminate goo?

That. I feel like that.

[Peregrine]

You know how, if you bring a deep-sea fish to the surface, the sudden and dramatic reduction in pressure causes all their cells to explode and they dissolve from a creature of stunning complexity into a puddle of indescriminate goo?

That. I feel like that.

Just pop your swim bladder. You'll be fine.

[12"razormix]

i feel alive and i like it.

tomorrow morning i will wake up and be alive again.

one more time. i plan to like that just as much.

[brightpearl]

Just pop your swim bladder. You'll be fine.
:D
Oh, goo is fine too, much better than being in the deep.

There are monsters down there.
:eek:

[lukkucairi]

^ and now there's one less monster ;)

[brightpearl]

I feel this ache today, you know? It doesn't seem connected to anyone or anything in particular, though. It's that ache everybody knows.

Knowing that helps.

A little.

[lukkucairi]

I feel frustration that my brain is taking its sweet time in getting around to where I want it to go.

But that's pretty standard, no?

http://images.jupiterimages.com/common/detail/14/61/23036114.jpg

Pearly, here's tea for your ache.

[Frieda]

i feel like the world is coming to an end. and it's not even because of my PMS this time.

[brightpearl]

Oh noes!
This is for Frieda:
http://archives.zinester.com/90798/76033/107750_sprout.jpg
Watch and you'll see something sprouts soon. Until then, *hugs*. And trees.

And this is for lukku, to jump start her brain:
http://www.partridges.uk.com/catalog/images/spark_plug.jpg
I think you just plug it in somewheres...
And thanks for the tea. ;)

And this is for TIP, who I'm sure will find permanent digs any second now:
http://i167.photobucket.com/albums/u138/reggie_D/1111.jpg
You can't tell from the picture, but there are tomatoes in the fridge already cut into perfect little squares. Take care of yourself.

As for me, I feel okay at the moment.

[brightpearl]

Lord
Lord
there is no pain like watching your child cry.

[lukkucairi]

today was hard.

eeeyyyyaah.

[brightpearl]

^sorry, lukku. Feel better.

Today I feel very, very ill. It's nearly 1pm, and I've been up for half an hour, and I am going to go right back to bed very soon.

grooooaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan

urg

[lukkucairi]

I feel better. I'm basically a whiny bitch with no real problems :)

hope you feel better - some of this might work...

http://www1.istockphoto.com/file_thumbview_approve/3583253/2/istockphoto_3583253_chamomile_tea.jpg

[brightpearl]

thanks
and thank heavens for boiled white rice
urg

[Marcus Bales]

Sometimes I feel like a motherless child

[Tunesmith]

I feel this ache today, you know? It doesn't seem connected to anyone or anything in particular, though. It's that ache everybody knows.

Knowing that helps.

A little.

Y'know, I was just about to post something along the lines of this. Good to know everyone else feels it. :rolleyes:

[Jack Flanders]

I had my new passport picture taken today at the post office - another really fvckin bad photo. oh, well.

[lukkucairi]

I'm feeling a little intimidated - shh, don't tell anyone!

[Marcus Bales]

I feel feelings.

[Frieda]

i feel quite hungry already

[lukkucairi]

I feel feelers that feel feelings

[brightpearl]

^Oh, man, you gotta watch out for those.

[lukkucairi]

I'm past feeling feelers now...

I know nothing about electronics and I feel EXTREMELY STUPID!

[brightpearl]

I know that if you stick a wet finger in them you might feel something of a tingle.

[lukkucairi]

I tried that, and I felt an ineffable sensation of watermelon in my brain.

oh, yeah, and my finger felt unpleasantly hot. is this normal?

[Stephi_B]

I'm past feeling feelers now...

I know nothing about electronics and I feel EXTREMELY STUPID!

Leave away the feeling-extremely-stupid and you might even get a pre-diploma in experimental physics if you'd wish so (speak out of personal experience, fukking electronics!!! almost as stupid as electrochemistry!!! it's a shame electrons involve themselves in such cryptic nonsense at all! :mad:) and from what I heard from many others even a proper diploma in physics.


Feel better, just a bit rubbery kinda.

[Frieda]

i feel like i've gotten so many new insights lately that they are grating around in my head like a bag of marbles. it's friggin noisy and i can't sleep.

[lukkucairi]

the tips of my fingers and toes feel cold.

[Hyakujo's Fox]

Sometimes I feel like a motherless child

Sometimes I feel that my feelings are like motherless children, or is that childless mothers?

[lukkucairi]

i feel like i've gotten so many new insights lately that they are grating around in my head like a bag of marbles. it's friggin noisy and i can't sleep.

I feel your pain!

I also feel slightly congested.

[brightpearl]

My best friend's mother died yesterday.
In a way it's a relief, and in another way...what a freaking horrible way to have to get relief. They got to say goodbye, and it's okay, but it's also so, so not okay. You don't often hear sobs like that, an ache as heavy as stone and just as old, I call it.

I hope never to be at her bedside, watching, the way her mom's friends were, though I would. I would, and so I also hope to be there if it's necessary.

We've been best friends since we were kids, for 20 years, so I learned something about how to mother from her mother. Her mom used to take care of snacks when I slept over, wash my clothes, do those things that I did for myself in my own house. I hadn't anticipated that I would have my own, direct sadness over her passing.

It is a good thing to feel connected, and it's also terrible. Great enough to contain the whole of things.

[auntie aubrey]

it's an experience that makes you part of a club where you hate to meet or hear about other members.

it's a special kind of grief. i describe it as clutching a slowly sinking weight in the midst of a vast ocean. at first it carries you down with it, far beyond where your lungs can sustain the pressure. eventually you begin to learn to cope, the initial flush of grief passes and the weight releases you, rocketing you up to the surface for an explosive gasp of air.

the process of working through the grief is like being compelled to dive down to touch the weight and bobbing back up again, again and again and again. as the weight sinks deeper it's a longer descent and its draw on you loses some of its power. you find you can stay on the surface longer without feeling compelled to dive. that's the up side of the grief, that eventually you can mostly resist the urge to dive.

the down side of the grief is that it never hurts less. you may think about it less, and fewer things may trigger it with time. but every time you take a deep breath and dive deep down into the depths of the water and touch it, it hurts just as intensely as the moment it first dragged you beneath the waves.



it's such a visual thing to me. that's the first time i've tried to put it into words. it's painful even to describe.

[lukkucairi]

^ that's a beautiful explanation of a horrible thing

thanks, aubs...you hit it precisely.

pearly, *hug*.

[brightpearl]

thanks, funeral's tomorrow.

and ohh, I miss my little boy today.

[michaelG]

I feel pretty,
Oh, so pretty,
I feel pretty and witty and bright!

[auntie aubrey]

i worried myself awake. first i worried myself so much that i couldn't get to sleep at all. then i tricked myself into sleeping and had 3 hours of apocalyptic dreams. then i woke up and immediately had a resurgence of the worry and as a result haven't been able to get back to sleep again.

i haven't done this in almost a year. no idea what's triggered it now, out of the blue.

[Marcus Bales]

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[T.I.P.]

i worried myself awake. first i worried myself so much that i couldn't get to sleep at all. then i tricked myself into sleeping and had 3 hours of apocalyptic dreams. then i woke up and immediately had a resurgence of the worry and as a result haven't been able to get back to sleep again.

i haven't done this in almost a year. no idea what's triggered it now, out of the blue.

that happened to me last night, for some reason, even though i am exhausted. Chalk it up to cosmic movements..

[Brynn]

Me too :eek:

[Coffee]

Hmmm...something in the water/air/food perhaps?

I had a near panic attack completely out of left field the other day. Have no idea what I was worried about...just a profound sense of dread came over me. Finally got to sleep, had a couple of nightmares including a jolt awake after dreaming my boat was 1/2 sunk, fell asleep again, and then it was gone in the morning.

WTF?

[zero]

^&^^&^^^&^^^^&^^^^^http://bulletin.zefrank.com/images/icons/icon14.gifhttp://bulletin.zefrank.com/images/icons/icon14.gifhttp://bulletin.zefrank.com/images/icons/icon14.gifhttp://bulletin.zefrank.com/images/icons/icon14.gifhttp://bulletin.zefrank.com/images/icons/icon14.gif
ME TOO!!:D

[Frieda]

^ oh SHADDUP zermo you dotn even have a boat.

http://farm2.static.flickr.com/1015/1161079468_e104361264.jpg

[auntie aubrey]

Hmmm...something in the water/air/food perhaps?

well i finally chalked some of it up to a massive barometric change as a big storm front moved across the area. i'm really sensitive to atmospheric pressure shifts. isn't ol' tipper in NY now? maybe it was part of the same storm system.

[auntie aubrey]

also, the last time i slept that poorly was when there was a horrific lump beneath my 30th mattress.

http://www.52en.com/img/Princess_pea.jpg

[Brynn]

well yes, there's always that

[12"razormix]

^ oh SHADDUP zermo you dotn even have a boat.
maybe he just doesn't like to talk about it ;)

[brightpearl]

I have a lot of mixed feelings today. (no panic to report at present, thank heavens..)

I spent all yesterday at my friend's mother's funeral and the wake. I'm glad she can focus on her babies now, but it's a horrible way to get rest. I made sure she ate...she's nearly 7 months pregnant and too thin from stress...and took care of her toddler and cleaned the kitchen after everyone left. I gave her a copy of Song in a Year of Catastrophe by Wendell Berry, and those monkey slippers. I told her the slippers were her mother, under her feet, always under her feet, and that I'm under her feet too.

It's not a metaphor.

When her mother was young, she looked just like this photo of Sophia Loren.
http://www.divasthesite.com/images/Sophia_Loren/Sophia_Loren_13.jpg

[Brynn]

:( So very very sorry pearly

[brightpearl]

:( Thanks.
It's okay in that way that not okay things sometimes are. My darling friend looks small and alone from across the room, like all her feathers are broken, but they will grow back.

[lukkucairi]

pearly, you're a good one, you know that?

*hug*

[brightpearl]

^Thanks lulu. :o I heart you, too.
But whatever good I am doesn't really come from me.

[Stephi_B]

:( *hug* you Perla!
Lukku hit the nail. And I wanna add that you're a very sensitive person but a tough cookie nontheless. :)
Life's like a (quite freakoid) cosine curve and I think you're past the -1 function value now, it WILL become better.


I feel, mmh, I have neither a word nor a picture for how I feel today, just can say it's good and interesting, sort of easy-going and something else - well maybe it's just cos I finally got that 7h of sleep I really need last night ;)

[lukkucairi]

I feel OVERWHELMINGLY RELIEVED.

I also feel that pearly should learn to take a compliment, dammit.

apart from that, I'm feeling a bit chilly.

how are you feeling?

[Marcus Bales]

I feel frustrated that Funky hasn't posted a word, but then I feel like lukkucairi will be an excellent judge.

[auntie aubrey]

despair despair despair! one week to plan the entire 2008 content strategy for my topic center?! ARE YOU KIDDING ME?

two days left. one, really, since the proposal must be submitted friday. every time i think i'm getting close i realize i'm so far from the end.

DESPAIR!

http://artfiles.art.com/images/-/Karen-Watts/My-Despair-Poster-C12180059.jpeg

[Brynn]

http://www.all4israel.org/content/images/Weissman%20funeral2.jpg

[Odbe]

I'm feeling kind of whimsical... I've been thinking about all the things I've done or that have happened that I can never change, and I'm realising that 'never ever ever ever' is no shorter a length of time it was at age 5.

[brightpearl]

Sometimes I feel confused about why I'm in some kind of mess, and then I remember

Oh yeah
My heart is broken.

[michaelG]

I feel like telling people Obama is not really black.

He is just whitey in black skin, perpetuating the suppression of all of true Black America.

[Anna]

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[Tunesmith]

bleh.

such good intentions, so little time.

[lukkucairi]

not quite...

http://imagecache2.allposters.com/images/pic/SCR/1219~Dazed-And-Confused-Posters.jpg

[SavvyD]

I want to have a custom avatar and my dating life kinda sux. You can read more about it at www.savvysinglechristian.blogspot.com I wrote about Ze!!! Why? Because I felt like it!

[Frieda]

^ good for you! :) you can put your blog in your signature if you'd like to spread it around more. we all do that.



RIGHT NOW
i feel like i need to fwking CALM DOWN because i have an acute case of BRAIN DIARRHEA or something


i feel like talking in CAPS

[lukkucairi]

I feel like a big fat liar!

nyah!

[Peregrine]

It's time to stop pretending that I'm happy here.*


*I don't mean forum here. Forum here is fine. I mean work here.

[brightpearl]

I know the universe is gifting me from all directions, I do, I do. It's just that for a long time I feel like all the gifts have been hard lessons, and I don't want any more hard lessons, I want something soft that I can lie down on for a really long time.

[Frieda]

^ sweetie

life isn't always pretty, and i'm sorry you got hurt so bad..

it will get better-- step by step. try and relax, just for one day. feel no anger, just for one day. only for one single day. you can choose, every day again.

big hug & tons of good vibes coming your way from me :)

[brightpearl]

thanks...
I'm actually not angry, just tired and sad.

I post irritated here a lot because that's easier for me to admit.

eta good vibes back atcha

[Frieda]

i'm sorry honey, i'll leave you to it, then.

hugs :)

[brightpearl]

Ohhhh,
I'm just bellyachin'.

My boy is something to be cheerful about. Though when he has a hard time, I have a hard time...

hugs
you're lovely
and so are all the rest of you...

[brightpearl]

Right now I feel like it would be nice to be this girl.

http://farm2.static.flickr.com/1087/1300053698_a18287ad86.jpg

Or the cow. The cow looks contented, too.

[lukkucairi]

the cow looks pretty happy, yes.

the girl could use a little cheering up though.

I feel like one of these guys:

http://www.dvdjournal.com/reviewimgs/b/blazingsaddles_imgs/blazingsaddles_04.jpg

[T.I.P.]

i feel kinda cheeky tonight

http://rookery1.plime.com/storage/174500/174579_ecaf_90x90.jpg

[Stephi_B]

^:D


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[lukkucairi]

I feel reasonably good this morning

[Brynn]

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I feel regret that James Brown is not alive anymore so I could go be one of his go-go dancers.

[Hyakujo's Fox]

I feel like spicy beef on rice.

[lukkucairi]

I feel that hfox has never sounded tastier.

[Veruki]

I feel like i shouldn't have ridden my bike to work today. I feel a cold coming on and I think I just made it worse.

[Angry Kid Hoyt]

I feel happy that the notice that was sent to me from the Historic Preservation Council demanding I make repairs and paint my house was addressed incorrectly and was actually meant for my neighbor.
I feel sad for my neighbor.

[Marcus Bales]

I feel as angry as Kid Hoyt.

[Peregrine]

I might feel just slightly relieved, if it weren't for this overbearing sense of dread, confusion, and panic.

[Angry Kid Hoyt]

Weird, Peregrine, that's how I usually feel.

[Marcus Bales]

I feel with my right hand first, unless it's dark, then for some reason I feel with my left.

[Angry Kid Hoyt]

Feeling and groping are two different things.

[Brynn]

I might feel just slightly relieved, if it weren't for this overbearing sense of dread, confusion, and panic.

Time to breathe, sweet, and think about something nice. It'll be okay.

[Peregrine]

Time to breathe, sweet, and think about something nice. It'll be okay.

Thanks. :)

I'm not sunk yet. Just looking for soft place to land.

[Brynn]

That's right. You're never sunk. Just in lesson mode :)

[lukkucairi]

I feel slightly apprehensive about tomorrow's trade show work

[auntie aubrey]

we found the house of our dreams today. it's both thrilling and scary. thrilling because we're so close to making this dream a reality. scary because it's about 3 months ahead of schedule and we're not sure we could make an offer and forestall the closing that long.

so it's either move now and have to carry the apartment for a couple of months, which would be very cost prohibitive, or wait and risk losing the house to another bidder. also, if we moved now we'd have less in savings to offer as a downpayment. which doesn't work out to a huge different in the end, but it's still outside of our anticipated timeline.

i'm babbling out loud. i'm also biting my nails down to the quick. how does anyone survive this process?

[topcat]

go for it

[trisherina]

carry both for a while if you have to

pack

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

My gerbils decided it was springtime and one of them gave birth to three red wriggling uglies. Yay! :)

[hypnoplasm]

i'm babbling out loud. i'm also biting my nails down to the quick. how does anyone survive this process?

I feel your pain, Auntie. I'm in the same process. Haven't found the house of my dreams yet, but actively looking even though the realistic time to buy is a few months out. I'm half-afraid of finding something really good to not be in the position you're in. But then I realize that this is a huge thing and you can't afford to miss something really good. I think it's a good thing that you found something so perfect. I say go for it. Even if the market is flooded (it is in Philly), you never know. You can always try to stretch the escrow out a couple months. Good luck!

[Frieda]

we found the house of our dreams today. it's both thrilling and scary. thrilling because we're so close to making this dream a reality. scary because it's about 3 months ahead of schedule and we're not sure we could make an offer and forestall the closing that long.

so it's either move now and have to carry the apartment for a couple of months, which would be very cost prohibitive, or wait and risk losing the house to another bidder. also, if we moved now we'd have less in savings to offer as a downpayment. which doesn't work out to a huge different in the end, but it's still outside of our anticipated timeline.

i'm babbling out loud. i'm also biting my nails down to the quick. how does anyone survive this process?
here the whole process of buying a house takes about 3 months-- bidding games, then paperwork at the bank and notary, employment letters..

i'd go for it. for the past 3 years i've been living in an apartment that's way too expensive for me, the mortgage is about 2/3 of what i make every month-- but it's worth it. i worry sometimes, and i miss living in a 24/7 city, but i've never regretted buying this place :)

[lukkucairi]

it is 5am, and the sun has charred the other side of the earth and come back to us to paint the smoke over our heads an imperial violet


I feel sad.

[auntie aubrey]

here the whole process of buying a house takes about 3 months-- bidding games, then paperwork at the bank and notary, employment letters..

we've been told it could be a 60-90 day process, too. so i think we're going to ask to see the house next weekend. still, i dreamed last night that someone closed on that house yesterday so we lost our opportunity.

[lukkucairi]

^ how's the market in your area?

it's softened a lot all over the US. you may have more time than you think - but you never do know.

[Frieda]

we've been told it could be a 60-90 day process, too. so i think we're going to ask to see the house next weekend. still, i dreamed last night that someone closed on that house yesterday so we lost our opportunity.

don't let your dream stand in the way of reality-- call the broker and take a couple of hours off tomorrow to go see the house! :)

[auntie aubrey]

^ how's the market in your area?

it's softened a lot all over the US. you may have more time than you think - but you never do know.

very soft. but like you said, you never know.

don't let your dream stand in the way of reality-- call the broker and take a couple of hours off tomorrow to go see the house! :)

i emailed her this morning telling her we'd like to see it right away.

[Frieda]

^woo hoo! :D hope it works out, awesome! :)

[trisherina]

I feel extremely worried about the ratman being in a Beech King Air from Toronto to Rhode Island at this very moment. :(

[lukkucairi]

^ little planes like that are floaty - they take the weather pretty well, even though the occupants' stomachs might not...

turboprops are nice in that they have a tendency to want to fly - not like big heavy jets that rely on huge amounts of thrust not to stall out. I like little planes. I've done a LOT of flying around in 5- and 9-seaters, in some really horrendous weather too.

hope I'm helping - if not I'll just stop now :)

let us know when he lands, OK?

[trisherina]

Thank you for the aviation tutorial. We are both rec. pilots and much prefer to do our commercial flying in heavy iron.

He is safe and sound, having cheated death again. :cool:

[lukkucairi]

cor, well you learn something new about trisherina every day, eh?

good on yer, rec pilots - I've been handed the yoke but I didn't have a clue what to do with it except go "yipe!" and hand it back :)

living in the islands I got used to having to fly "commercial" on a regular basis in teensy things - no choice. I really don't want you to convince me that flying teensy things is cheating death - it'll just bring my aviation phobia out of retirement :D

[Jack Flanders]

I feel extremely worried about the ratman being in a Beech King Air from Toronto to Rhode Island at this very moment. :(

Weather was scary at that time, So you were right to have been nervous. But he did well. :)

[trisherina]

Did well drooling out the side of his mouth against a window lulled to sleep by the drone of the engine at his right ear, probably. But I did check the weather!

[Brynn]

I just love those small favors from the universe, sparing our loved ones and all...like so much skin off of an infinite nose.

[lukkucairi]

^ in my experience they tend to be taken away when you aren't paying attention, not when you're worried... :(

[Brynn]

it sure seems that way - must be why my mom is a champion worrier, then. she's convinced that her vigilance lends her super powers of preservation.

[Hyakujo's Fox]

not sure how to feel about this



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[lukkucairi]

^ it makes me feel as if I shouldn't touch it without wearing gloves

[Angry Kid Hoyt]

^^ I dare you to touch it with the tip of your tounge.
I double dare you!
I double dog dare you!

[lukkucairi]

do you triple dog dare me?

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aaaatth! thith feelth awfuh!