This is the thread where we talk about our feelings.

[auntie aubrey]

I feel humiliated. The goddamned doctor treated me like I'm stupid and made me cry.

[Marcus Bales]

I feel angry that Aubrey feels humiliated. I also feel pretty hungry, though, so I'm going to wait til after lunch to put on my cape and leap over a few tall buildings on my way to sitting down to reason sweetly with Aubrey's doctor.

[Odbe]

I feel for Aubrey too :( I really hate bad doctors. I feel like they have a duty to be good to their patients and make them feel comfortable, but of course that doesn't always happen.
Aubrey, he's only one person. The rest of the world knows he's the stupid one.



On a more self centred note, I have once again found myself in the position of motivating, organising and managing a group of people, fighting against limited time and large distances to create something wonderful. I always tell people I don't like leadership roles, but now, I just can't shake the overwhelming feeling of I belong here.

[Stephi_B]

I feel humiliated. The goddamned doctor treated me like I'm stupid and made me cry.

:mad: !!

[Avalon]

I feel humiliated. The goddamned doctor treated me like I'm stupid and made me cry.

Hon, you need to find a new dr. .

/mini rant/

You are a smart, well educated woman and deserve to be treated as such.
I have no idea what he said, but even within the confines of 'treatment', he had no right to be condescending. If you are not comfortable with your dr., you are less likely to be honest about your health. You need to be able to trust your dr...after all..he isn't just treating you these days...he is treating 3 people.



Right now, you need a dr. who has your entire best interests at heart...mentally and physically. If this dr, isn't doing that..time to trade up to one who will...and don't be afraid to keep looking until you find one you are happy with.

Go forth and find a new dr...or tell this one where to get off.

/rant over/

[auntie aubrey]

she's part of the OBGYN practice that i go to. they don't place you with a single doctor, they rotate you through all of the doctors because on the day you go into labor you'll get whichever doctor is on call. i've liked everyone there except her.

so yesterday when i left my appointment i casually said to the receptionist, "so i'm rotating, right? who will i be seeing next?" she said, "oh, you're rotating? okay let me see who's available." she placed me with someone else, someone i'll hopefully enjoy more.

after she made me cry (and i don't mean little cry. i mean shuddering gasping embarassing cry) i went back out to the waiting room and there was another girl out there crying into her cell phone and i heard her say the same doctor's name. so it's not just me.

i'm usually hard as nails. but, you know. preggers. sometimes there are inexplicable crying jags.

[brightpearl]

^Um, that one sounds explicable to me -- that dr. dumped her crappy attitude on you and the woman before you. I only wish that was the first time I'd heard someone say the OB humiliated them to the point of tears. It always makes me want to thow things. Explosive things.

Holey moley, even if you had been doing something completely harebrained, how would it help to treat you so? File under ineffective and harmful.

Well, maybe she was just having a bad day. Everybody does. But I still think you should mention what happened to your own doctor. If she does such things a lot and the other partners hear about it, they'll have to address it with her, and that will do all the patients after you some good.

[lukkucairi]

humph :mad:

find out when her rotation is and have a talk with your twins about timing issues :o

that's totally out of line - I know the preggers emotional roller coaster (not personally but have been there with friends) - that's a real "WTF?" - an OB should know better

agree with pearly - mention it to your doc.

[brightpearl]

^Yeah, I really think that's important. It's good to be really calm about it, don't treat it like a sue-able offense, and be sure to start the conversation by complimenting your dr., say how happy you've been with the others, and that way it can still be a pleasant conversation even though you're offering negative feedback. If you begin by saying how much you like everything in general, they probably won't take your criticism personally, and you won't have to worry that your care will be affected. You can also wait until after you deliver to mention it. But I do hope you mention it when you feel comfortable doing so.

[auntie aubrey]

because she might come up on delivery rotation i won't be filing any complaints until afterwards. but i have committed to refusing any further tests or treatments from her without a second opinion from someone else in the practice.

she had me running ragged with blood test after blood test after urine test after 24-hour urine collection because my blood pressure was 124/84. normal, for those who don't know, is 120/80 and it can fluctuate more than that on a normal day. you don't qualify as mildly elevated until 140/90.

she took my blood pressure 7 TIMES and pumped me for information about whether i had preexisting hypertension as though i were lying about it. in spite of the fact that my bp has been 120/80 on record with that practice for as long as i've been going there. i won't lie, i'm a heavy gal. but it's like she decided you can't be heavy and healthy so she was doing everything she could to prove that hypothesis and it made her mad that she couldn't prove that i had high blood pressure.

finally she informed me that i'd misunderstood the instructions on my 24-hour peepee collection (something she insisted i do, to prove i had high blood pressure and the looming specter of kidney failure) and i'd screwed up the whole test. then informed me that she has other patients do it all the time and none of THOSE women screwed it up, it was just me.

and that's when i started bawling like a scolded toddler.

i hate that woman.

this is so much more than is necessary in this thread. sorry about that.

[brightpearl]

*brightpearl fumes ominously*

That's hideous bedside manner and poor practice. Second opinions, yes yes.

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

^^ That doc has been totally deformed by the job. Maybe looking at her that way will help you ease up on hating her - because that's not good for you.

It's a disgusting deformity, really. She reminds me of one of the teachers I had who always tried to prove you didn't know anything and kept asking further questions until got you totally mised up.

I'm sorry you've had that experience. :(

[trisherina]

Get her the book Big Fat Lies by Glenn Gaesser. Read up about it on, you know, that big book ordering place that starts with an A.

[Stephi_B]

I feel like whenever I'm in Georgia (and after visiting Auntie and La Auntie Familia :)) I'd really want to kick that "doctor" bitch's ass!!!! ... and measure her bp and take her peepee at regular intervals during the procedure *evil grin*

Until then... stay as cool as possible whenever rotation runs bad for you, that with the second opinion is a good idea. Is it possible that someone (family, friends) could come with you to each examination and insist on being present in the examination room(s) if it's her? To give you strength and as a witness for her mobbing of pregnant women who actually are her patients and should be cared for as good as possible, particularly if they happen to be pregnant with twins (and pregnant for the first time, or?) *growling*
Another tip: When you should be on the verge of tears, imagine her taking a crap (or something similar that works for you), don't give her the satisfaction to see you cry and shake if you can help it! Let it out afterwards.

PS: I'm far from a twiggy figure myself and I have LOW bp, usually 107/66 or something...

[Frieda]

i'm really sorry you have to deal with such a bitch for a doctor, auntie.. sounds like she's been inspired by dr. House. :(


it sounds familiar to me-- i've had the same experience with physical therapists-- haven't found a single one that doesn't act like you described. i've had 4 so far. what i do, because i don't allow anybody to shit me on the head anymore, i ask questions until they no longer have answers. then i tell them they suck big hairy balls because they are incompetent and ignorant and leave the fwking practice.

i've had physical therapists tell me there's no edema in my ankle (you couldn't see the ankle bones anymore, it was that swollen), that CRPS is in my head (yeah that's probably why my foot is blue), that CRPS doesn't really hurt but i think it will hurt so it hurts (it's Complex Regional PAIN Syndrome, duh, it hurts like hell) and more of that bullshit. they just don't know what they're talking about. which is the reason, but no excuse for treating anyone like that.

my advice is to leave the practice and/or make sure she apologizes to your face for her behavior. there's no reason in the world why she should be treating you like that, you deserve better! :)

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

I feel sooo goood: I'm eating raspberry flavoured dark chocolate and I have a four-day long weekend waiting for me. And you're welcome to feel a little envious - that would make me feel even better. ;)

[auntie aubrey]

holy crap i'm envious.

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

Help, I've just come to realise I can't deal with feeling so good! Now I feel obligated to send some of it to auntie by the waves of sunrays. Catch! :)

[Marcus Bales]

Feeling good: Small Toot Of Own Horn

The more obscure one's references, the more likely someone is to publish something, and, today only, one of my poems, deliberately obscure, is featured at a site called "Best Poem" at

http://bestpoem.wordpress.com/

If you want to click through without undergoing what is probably just as obscure prose below where I try to offer some context, or the almost equally obscure Wallace Stevens poem below that, of which my poem is a filk, I'm providing a link so the site that published it gets traffic. If you have time, please take a look.

Oh, "filk". Right.

It’s often useful to distinguish four kinds of poems that take something of the form or voice or style or manner of someone else's original piece.

Imitations, where the new writer is trying to write in the same style of an admired other writer, and no mockery is intended.

Response poems reply, more or less directly, to the writer/narrator of the original poems, without attempting to mock the original's form, style, or manner.

Parody poems that reply, more generally, to the sensibility that admires the original, in order to satirize the original work, its sensibility, and its admirers' views of it.

Filk poems that don't really reply to the original at all, but rather take the salient characteristics of that original for the writer's own ends. The term "filk" originated as a typo in a sci-fi fan newsletter announcing a "folk song sing" back in mimeograph days as a "filk song sing". Since even then many of the songs at sci-fi fan conventions were take-offs of other songs and poems, the term stuck.

Obscure as my filk poem is, then, I suppose a word of explanation would be appropriate. Wallace Stevens wrote a poem called "A High-toned Old Christian Woman", which I append below for reference. Christian Wiman is the new editor of Poetry Magazine, arguably the most prestigious poetry magazine in English. Poetry Magazine was left something on the order to 100 million dollars by one of the Lily Pharmaceutical heirs The magazine created a foundation with the money and, among other changes, replaced the long-time editor. I'm providing a link so the site that published it gets traffic. If you have time, please take a look.

http://bestpoem.wordpress.com/

Marcus


A High-Toned Old Christian Woman
Wallace Stevens

Poetry is the supreme fiction, madame.
Take the moral law and make a nave of it
And from the nave build haunted heaven. Thus,
The conscience is converted into palms,
Like windy citherns hankering for hymns.
We agree in principle. That's clear. But take
The opposing law and make a peristyle,
And from the peristyle project a masque
Beyond the planets. Thus, our bawdiness,
Unpurged by epitaph, indulged at last,
Is equally converted into palms,
Squiggling like saxophones. And palm for palm,
Madame, we are where we began. Allow,
Therefore, that in the planetary scene
Your disaffected flagellants, well-stuffed,
Smacking their muzzy bellies in parade,
Proud of such novelties of the sublime,
Such tink and tank and tunk-a-tunk-tunk,
May, merely may, madame, whip from themselves
A jovial hullabaloo among the spheres.
This will make widows wince. But fictive things
Wink as they will. Wink most when widows wince.

-- Wallace Stevens

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

Feeling good: Small Toot Of Own Horn

http://bulletin.zefrank.com/images/icons/icon14.gif Aaah, you must feel proud.

I feel content, having learned a new word, filk. ;)

[Malmal11787]

I feel reborn... Here I am after being away since last year sometime...

I also feel exhausted. Finishing up my last week of classes and getting ready for finals next week...

[brightpearl]

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[Frieda]

I feel reborn... Here I am after being away since last year sometime...

I also feel exhausted. Finishing up my last week of classes and getting ready for finals next week...
heey welcome back! :)

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

My feelings are indescribable. The morning air was filled with the sweet, sensuous fragrance of blooming lilacs.

[Stephi_B]

^Yeah, yeah, it's May...

I feel deep, broadband love for all good there is: people, animals, plants, material, immaterial, maybe even non-existent things... :) :) :) :)

(Yeah, yeah, it's May...)

[lukkucairi]

^^ :D

I feel a little afraid - I tried to sprout some fern tree seeds that my mother-in-law had had in storage for years and years - I thought that maybe one or two would be viable...but they ALL sprouted.

I'm going to have to find room in my house for 10 of these eventually :

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/thumb/c/c7/Filicium_decipiens_-_Fern_tree.jpg/450px-Filicium_decipiens_-_Fern_tree.jpg

[trisherina]

I feel more like a person when I'm not so stressed.

[Stephi_B]

^Aye, same here if you'd add a 'would' and a 'would be' there... plus I feel sorry towards those who might at times come in the line of fire when I get my stress-induced *CAWOOM* :o

[trisherina]

I hope your time is coming soon, Stephi.

[Marcus Bales]

I'm feeling pretty good because the thurs fri sat concerts the cjo did of Frank Zappa's music went very well indeed. David Morgan, the CJO bassist, transcribed Zappa's music, and did the charts and parts -- an amazing amount of work!

This is the Cleveland Jazz Orchestra:
http://www.youtube.com/clevelandjazzorch

This is Zappa:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MKWBFWneJQ0

[brightpearl]

I feel like stale bread.
http://cleanplateclubnyc.com/wp-content/uploads/2006/09/Stale%20fondu%20bread.jpg

[auntie aubrey]

i am angry in ways i can't possibly express without sounding like a total lunatic.

the next person who casually dismisses fundraising for cancer research as a "trendy" non-cause is getting 50 punches to the face and a knee to the groin.

it just makes me so furious. i can't even... words fail.... like spitting nails.... it's like.... it's like... qaw;oruqaeuhjr qowu4johtiu-0 48n 89q5yanf sh;oifh!!!!!!!


that's what it's like.

[Marcus Bales]

I feel like living dangerously.

propiolic - a trendy non-cause.

In hell when Auntie Aubrie says she'll give you 50 punches to the face and a knee to the groin, it's always the case that you've just removed your cup because it chafes, and you can't resist saying something about how fund-raising for cancer is propiolic.

[Stephi_B]

I hope your time is coming soon, Stephi.

That... or I'll go mad :(
(my body and soul need weekends for example, 2 day weekends!)
But I feel better today, yesterday my office 'mate'(??) drove me crazy, he asked me in the morning not only (way too cheerful) whether I had worked last weekend (*grumble*, yes half of the 4 days others had free) and if it runs well with writing (I told him ca. in Feb that I don't want to hear that question, but pffft he asks at least thrice per week, nobody else does ask that (or anything else in that direction) at work, except boss - but well he's the boss, he'll correct it etc.
THEN: Only ca. 3 hours later (when I just had noticed, rather pissed that we have an extra seminar to attend) he asked me AGAIN if I had accomplished something (these last 3 hours that is).
He is a workaholic, as is his girlfriend (my chica, formerly, we've lived apart... she has resorted to shopping and working as only activities when she's wake), they do (many) weekend shifts even without any pressure, deadlines whatever (totally nuts imo, particularly what will they do when they really get pressure when they'll have to write up??). Anyways, I feel they somehow wallow in me having to work weekends currently (always these questions asked in so-sweet tone!!:mad:). And my office 'mate' even goes so far as to count cigarette butts in the ashtray (I always forget to empty :o ) and I suspect he might even be checking when I was logged in for the last time :rolleyes: So when I came in these last Mo mornings, he went like: "I saw you've worked on weekend..." and always this stupid smile on his face! :mad:
Ah, and last week, when I said Wednesday evening that I'll take free May 1 (yeah, I suppose he asked me whether I'll work, then I still answered such things) he told me in such a fatherly tone (he is a year younger than me, and almost three years after me in working matters - and he looks after such things, for example he used to explain me - very proudly - that his girlfriend will have her PhD being like a 3/4 year younger than me and he looks down upon my friend cos she threw uni and PhD, being "just" a maths and physics teacher today.): "Don't party to wild... (cos you gotta write)". Wtf!?
Well, but yesterday I told him (well, I exploded...) what I think about this constant asking "And how many pages did you write today / this afternoon?" and all these other inquiries which are the last thing I need now, being totally pissed at this whole work-realted shit anyway, and my stuff in particular. Today, it was very tense from his side, I behaved normal, even borrowed him money for a coke, but I feel a whole lot better. Satisfied that stuff is said and I stopped sort of justifying myself towards someone who has no business with my life, stuff, work - we just share office - period!

[Frieda]

my wisdom tooth is going to be drilled out today.. i feel so scared.. :(

maybe i'll lose feeling in my lip permanently because the nerve is so close to the roots
maybe it'll take forever and the sedation won't last long enough just like last time
maybe i'll accidently swallow blood and have to puke
maybe
maybe

help!

:(

[lukkucairi]

*hug* Frieds, you'll be fine. Sending you good calm vibes :)

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

maybe
maybe
:(

Don't fret, Frieda, maybe everything will go all right.

[Frieda]

i went in at 11:30 and the damn thing was out at 11:45-- bye bye tooth! what a relief that it went so fast, so much better than last time!

thanks guys :) your good wishes make me feel a lot better :)

[Marcus Bales]

I feel relieved! Not as relieved as Frieda, of course, but relieved nonetheless!

[T.I.P.]

That... or I'll go mad :(
(my body and soul need weekends for example, 2 day weekends!)
But I feel better today, yesterday my office 'mate'(??) drove me crazy, he asked me in the morning not only (way too cheerful) whether I had worked last weekend (*grumble*, yes half of the 4 days others had free) and if it runs well with writing (I told him ca. in Feb that I don't want to hear that question, but pffft he asks at least thrice per week, nobody else does ask that (or anything else in that direction) at work, except boss - but well he's the boss, he'll correct it etc.

Least favorite question at the end of my thesis:

- So...are you finished yet ? (we used to ask each other this with co-grad students all the time for comic relief/torment).

Second least favorite question:

-So...what's your thesis about?

I answered those two questions SO MANY TIMES that I thought I would explode if anyone else asked me again.


Ah, and last week, when I said Wednesday evening that I'll take free May 1 (yeah, I suppose he asked me whether I'll work, then I still answered such things) he told me in such a fatherly tone (he is a year younger than me, and almost three years after me in working matters - and he looks after such things, for example he used to explain me - very proudly - that his girlfriend will have her PhD being like a 3/4 year younger than me and he looks down upon my friend cos she threw uni and PhD, being "just" a maths and physics teacher today.): "Don't party to wild... (cos you gotta write)". Wtf!?

...and then you pushed him into the cyclotron and fired up the proton beamer, effectively transforming him into a smoking morsel of excrement :)

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

...he asked me in the morning not only (way too cheerful) whether I had worked last weekend... ...they do (many) weekend shifts even without any pressure...

Just wondering: Have you considered fighting fire with fire? You know, talking in motherly tone about the importance of taking a rest (you might throw in some scientific facts, too, if you like - the order in nature, etc) Then, every time weekend approaches, you might lovingly inquire about his plans for the weekend. 'Oh, no, is it work again?' combined sometimes with a face of serious concern, sometimes just a silent headshake, sometimes a look of disbelief...

That would teach him about some basic facts of life, namely, that people do differ from each other - and maybe, just maybe, he'd learn to live with those differences in a more graceful way. Or maybe, more probably, you'll just annoy the shit out of him.

[lukkucairi]

I feel tired and bitchy and a tad bit frustrated...

[Frieda]

i feel like a hamster. i think i can store 2 kg of pine nuts in my mangled cheek.

[lukkucairi]

I feel tired and bitchy and a tad bit frustrated...

^this, again, but moreso.

now I'm completely underslept and angry as hell.

I'm at the end of my rope, and I think the only thing to do here is let the fukker go.

[Stephi_B]

^You are on less than 3-4h sleep since two weeks or longer, right?
Yes, let it go, but take care!!
If you can try to find the reason and/or try get back a natural feeling to sleeping (or not sleeping in some nights) -- it took me over a year when I had insomnia, only then I came over 5, 6h again. First you need to get back the calm / kma-insomnia-attitude and then the sleep follows. Promised! (I know it's hard to believe when you're in there.)

[lukkucairi]

thanks Steph, feeling better now

I know the reason! I'll be cured in about two weeks, at least of the most of the sleeplessness... in the meantime I'm just trying to roll with it :o

[Stephi_B]

^Ah that's good; a reason and one ending soon even! :)
(is it somehow connected with the preparations for Burning Man?
Sorry if I should be too curious, just ignore it in that case ;))
Hang in there!! + enjoy the sunrises till then...

(the only good thing about insomnia - seeing sunrises! It always made me feel better to watch the sun rise after a bad night, sitting on the balcony - cuddled in blankets when icy outside - with a cuppa tea, taking in the silence only disturbed by occasional trams and few earlyrisers/latetobedgoers strolling down the street.)

[lukkucairi]

ah, burning man prep is no problem at all :)

it's the impending flight across't the atlantic to visit my mother that's got me in a kerfuffle. she and I have had historically a problematic-at-best relationship - not so bad that we write each other off, and not so good that we can sleep well at night for a week or so before we visit with each other. I'll share my half of the blame for the half-bad blood, but she's an exceedingly difficult person for me to get along with.

so that's what's been keeping me up at night. :o

I'll be much happier after this trip is over and done with. usually I have my husband with me when I see her, and he helps defuse things - but I'm facing a 5-day stretch solo with her.

it'll all work out one way or another :p

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

http://www.ops.org/nescp/Setuptools2.gif

I feel with you. :( But this will also pass. At least, you have the sixth day on the horizon...

[T.I.P.]

i am feeling sloth today

[brightpearl]

so am i
http://slog.thestranger.com/files/2007/10/slothhug.jpg

[auntie aubrey]

AAAARGH! i've spent hours refacing the new house's kitchen cabinets in low-VOC latex white paint. we needed to cover up a really horrible, dated "wood grain" faux finish that the previous owner did about 10 years ago.

i am fairly certain at this point that he used oil based paint for the faux-finish. i have literally never ever ever lived anywhere where oil paint was used. it never occurred to me in my wildest dreams that someone would have used such a noxious substance in the room where they keep their food.

but there's no other way to explain the way the latex paint is sheeting off. that horrible man must have done his horrible finish in oil.

and now we're up shit creek because the paint wants to peel and we will basically have to start from scratch with primer and a total do-over on the refacing job.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!!

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

so am i
http://slog.thestranger.com/files/2007/10/slothhug.jpg

slothy or not, this picture is the quintessence of cuteness! :)

[lukkucairi]

I'm sitting at a bar in Manchester airport, waiting for my connecting flight.

I feel kinda jetlagged ;)

[Frieda]

^do you still have time to switch planes to amsterdam? i feel like skipping work today :D

[lukkucairi]

^I wish!

dammit, my flight has just been delayed another half hour :mad:

time for another half pint of Guinness and a packet of ham and mustard flavoured crisps :p

[Stephi_B]

9x^ Ah, I see...
(can totally understand, problematic-at-best-mother-daugther thingies are 'tradition' in my family)

Forget flying to Amsterdam or your original destination, is there a flight to Berlin? :)
It stopped raining, is getting warmer again and I feel like having a beer in a city-beach bra... :) ;) :)

[Frieda]

^aw, shame! would've been fun :)

[auntie aubrey]

the living room and kitchen are finished so we're moving to the new house tomorrow. last minute packing is our hell today. it's chaotic and it's not done yet. i hope the babies like stress because that's what they're getting.

:(

[trisherina]

^ billy, don't be a hero :p

(just imagine when yer old an feeble and you can make the boys do all your packing for you by telling them this story -- sswwweeeet)

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

I feel very-very sad, because today I lost my favourite&most beautiful sweater. I was very tired in the morning, because I couldn't sleep properly last night Well, more like 'lately') and I didn't notice how I lost it. Somehow it slipped off my bag. :( :( :( :( :(

[brightpearl]

Over in this spot I feel overwhelmed and mistreated and completely exhausted.
Over in that spot, I feel supported and mostly okay.

[michaelG]

Today, I am obsessed and overwhelmed with the knowledge that life is futile, hostile, boring and short. Why must we struggle so hard, eat well, be virtuous... only to die?

Also, since I have realized that I can not prove that anyone else actually has consciousness or thoughts, that all Others may in fact be automatons, I have begun to feel very lonely and isolated.

[lukkucairi]

I feel happy? (http://www.flickr.com/photos/tathei/570544305/)

[Frieda]

i feel annoyed because there's this market fair thing unit downstairs blocking my entire street and guess what's right there parked on the corner of the street??

a merry-go-round from hell with an attitude. it has harmonica music and clown noises going MOOP DOING BEEP HAHAHA! every 2 minutes. HAHAHA! :mad:

[Marcus Bales]

^ At least there are no firemen with their big pumps.

[michaelG]

I feel as if I can just find the correct mix of heavy narcotic and neurotoxin I can release myself from this mortal coil .

[Stephi_B]

^Shall I mix you one of my killer mojitos with just a little more rum than I usually take? ;)

No, jokes aside, Mr G, you worry me :(
Stay here (i.e. in your momentary existence), OK?
Please.

[Frieda]

^ At least there are no firemen with their big pumps.

are you kidding me?? do you have any idea how much a girl needs a proper fireman or two with a big spout from time to time??

[michaelG]

are you kidding me?? do you have any idea how much a girl needs a proper fireman or two with a big spout from time to time??

speaking of big hoses, it is true what they say about my people.

[Anna]

Today, I am obsessed and overwhelmed with the knowledge that life is futile, hostile, boring and short. Why must we struggle so hard, eat well, be virtuous... only to die?

Also, since I have realized that I can not prove that anyone else actually has consciousness or thoughts, that all Others may in fact be automatons, I have begun to feel very lonely and isolated.

I feel as if I can just find the correct mix of heavy narcotic and neurotoxin I can release myself from this mortal coil .

you haven't suffered enough

[Stephi_B]

^^still fixed on race -- but no longer on the depri trip. That's fine!

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

I feel powerless, sad, devastated.

Kiribati will cease to exist. :(

http://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/World/USA/Tiny_atoll_in_Pacific_cries_out_for_help/articleshow/3104328.cms

[michaelG]

I feel like a motherless child.

[brightpearl]

Ohhhh, you can't be, because I often feel like everybody's mother, and neither of the two is unequally untrue.

Right now I smell what this dress would smell like if colors had smells
http://www.style.com/slideshows/fashionshows/F2008RTW/TAO/RUNWAY/00100m.jpg
poser postmodern anti-feminist goth industrial solvent smell
which is quite unpleasant indeed
and I feel tired and alone and ill and a headache coming on

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

^ Smell therapy:

http://www.victoriananursery.co.uk/soft_bush_and_cane_fruits/fruit_plants/strawberry_seed_sweet_temptation/l/strawberry_sweet_temptation.jpg

of earth, of sweetness, of life

[brightpearl]

^Thanks very much for your kind reminder.

I feel better and am going to make a little shrine in my bedroom to Imitrex.
http://www.healthcentral.com/common/images/g/GLX04501_126904_5.JPG

It's so beautiful.
*sniff*
:D

[Brynn]

http://www.dkimages.com/discover/previews/943/787024.JPG

[trisherina]

I'm feeling like a good trampoline workout -- who's with me?

http://safetycenter.navy.mil/photo/images/images-251-300/photo284.jpg

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

^ :D Stag the Impaler

[Stephi_B]

I feel slightly enervated by people who think they are the axis around which all revolves.

[lukkucairi]

I feel slightly annoyed by people who don't recognize that I'm the axis around which the universe revolves ;)

[Frieda]

^hey! i'm the axis around which the universe revolves! :mad: :p





oh and i'm feeling quite high right now because i've been applying wood oil to my balcony furniture and i think i just took a few breaths too many of this stuff

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

http://shopping.animazing.com/gallery/willardson_04/art/small/images/505-1216%20The%20Fast%20And%20The%20Furious%20%23%2012 %2011.5x8.5.jpg

[Stephi_B]

Lukku & Frieda: Nah, nah, but I at least KNOW somebody who's the axis (or thinks so or whatever) :p ;)

I feel tired, even more tired than before.
I feel I should go and see if I can be home for the second halftime.

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

I'm still so angry that I can't fall asleep. I tried to calm down, but unsuccessfully. And today I have to get up in about five hours.

I left my USB key in the class computer the other day. Today I discovered that my colleague found it and copied all of its content into her computer. My school stuff and my personal stuff. I think I will kill her tomorrow. :mad: :mad: :mad: :mad: :mad:

[Jack Flanders]

^^^ well that really sucks. can you get her in deepdogshit trouble for that? I'd sure as hell would try. :mad: oh, ya. it's really hot here.

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

Ach, I'll confront her first thing today, with my boss, and make her write a written explanation of her unethical and immoral activities. I sure hope they're illegal as well.

[Stephi_B]

^ & ^^^ :eek: :mad:

I hope she gets a proper 'head-washing'!!

[brightpearl]

I feel really disappointed on behalf of someone close to me.

[Frieda]

Ach, I'll confront her first thing today, with my boss, and make her write a written explanation of her unethical and immoral activities. I sure hope they're illegal as well.

how did it go??

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

^ She denied it, of course, and started yelling at me: how I dare accuse her of this, started acting a bit, you know, trouble with breathing, heart; then went on with a conspiracy theory: everybody wants to get her out ouf the place, that's why we do all these things to her. (Actually, the first part is true, we all want her to leave. She used to be our boss and was - still is - quite evil, in fact.) But we don't ant can't do anything to her, it's all her own doing.

Anyway, I wrote a letter of complaint to our boss, she handed it over to her and now she has to react. That's all that's probably going to happen - she has some powerful protectors behind her. It might even turn against me...

Yesterday I was enraged. But I feel almost all right now. ;)

[michaelG]

I feel a sense of constant dread and self-loathing. I feel very tired and fatigued-struck with a major case of malaise. There seems no reason to live as we all age and die. my youth is fleeing my body . I feel like experimenting with hard core heavy drugs.

All lives are trivial and meaningless.

[lukkucairi]

I feel tired.

[Peregrine]

I feel bored. My boss was gone for most of the day, and left me with no marching orders. So I pretty much did nothing all day. I did a bit of research, and tried to steer my research toward something relevant. But it was pretty much a lazy day.

I also feel a slight tinge of guilt. But I'm sure it'll pass in time for the weekend.

[Stephi_B]

^Don't! Laziness is one of the finer human virtues :)


I feel pity for this dude. Just that.
Otherwise I feel nice, still weekend-endorphined :)

[lukkucairi]

I feel like it's all going to work out :)

[Bman]

Of all the metropolitan areas in greater south florida, you had to walk in to mine...-_-

[Hyakujo's Fox]

Alright Feelings, you don't like me, and I don't like you. But lets just do this.

[Odbe]

^ :) Ditto.

[brightpearl]

A while back I had gotten a path done halfway to the back of the house, filled with pea gravel. It looked pretty nice. Somehow this got dug up and used as fill for a project that never got finished and has been sitting as a grim monument to emotional sabotage in the side yard for a long time now. I gave up on the path, out of dispiritedness I guess.

But in doing community work recently, I learned how to set stones, and I liked how it looked so much that I decided I wanted something similar here. I realized that all the good flat stones are there in that lump. So I started pulling them out and putting them where they'll go, until it got too hot. Eventually there will be nice stone gardens and no lump.

And so right now, I feel better.

And maybe when this is done, I'll put the path back in, too. We'll see.

[Marcus Bales]

Whoa whoa whoa

[michaelG]

I feel doomed and desperate, and relieved by thoughts of death

[Marcus Bales]

A farmer in his pickup truck in Alabama was driving across a bridge when he noticed a man standing on the rail of the bridge ready to jump to his death in the river below.

The farmer stopped his truck ran up to the man, and asked "Hey fellow, why are you doing this?"

The man replied, "Well, I have nothing to live for."

The farmer replied, "Well, think of your wife and children!"

The jumper replied, "My wife or children died in a car accident."

The farmer then said, "Well, then think of your mother and father!"

The man replied, "Mom and Dad passed on many years back."

The farmer then said, "Well, think of General Robert E. Lee!"

The would-be jumper replied, "Who?"

The Alabama farmer turned away disgustedly and said, "Jump, you ignorant Yankee!"

[trisherina]

I have entered the realm of alien. I described my confusion in evaluating human intercourse* as "unsure of the protocol."

*spontaneously!

[Marcus Bales]

Well, there were varying inputs across a wide dynamic range so why would you expect to be sure of the protocol, Grbsxxlysh? Sometimes I despair of our report to the Swarm about these humans.

[michaelG]

Today, I feel like millions of microbes are defecating in my blood stream. My mouth tastes of moist decay, my mind slowed by tiny particles of fecal matter, my nose filled will the pungent odor of decaying flesh. All of this has me feeling like a rotting corpse on its way back to become the dust from which it came. I feel ..........we are all one.

[Coffee]

^^^That would be your White blood cells attacking your reverse racism attempting to get you to see that we are all one...it appears to be working...don't get well toooo soon.

[lukkucairi]

I feel relieved :p

[auntie aubrey]

my doctor won't let me go to michigan for my baby shower. i feel very disappointed and sad.

[michaelG]

^^^That would be your White blood cells attacking your reverse racism attempting to get you to see that we are all one...it appears to be working...don't get well toooo soon.


Whitey has always attacked the black man in an attempt to dominate him. Whenever whitey enters into the black man's domain everything begins to smell of rotting corpses and filth. If I submitted to whitey's will everytime he tried to keep me down, I , like so many of my brethren, would probably be perpetuating the white man's lies : we all smoke crack, randomly father children, lust after white women, and live in public housing.

I feel reinvigorated by YOUR racist comment.

[Frieda]

^you're assuming coffee is white. coffee is never white. have you ever seen white coffee?

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

Whitey blah, blah, blah...

I feel exasperated by monothematic racist comments. Could you please make an attempt to post something that's not tinted by your anger?

[Stephi_B]

^^^I feel you Mr G like to bring up all sorts of prejudices against blacks (including that of the "angry black man").
Of course you quote them as "whitey" opinion or "black" reaction on / feelings about latter.
It makes me wonder a bit, just like your (imo illogical) aversion against Obama....

[Marcus Bales]

Michael G is pretty clearly a sock puppet for some KKK dickhead, trying to foment racism. Just ignore him.

[Odbe]

^you're assuming coffee is white. coffee is never white. have you ever seen white coffee?

No but I have heard people order a 'flat white'. :confused: I am quite confused now.

[lukkucairi]

^I thought "flat white" was a kind of paint?

I feel better this morning. I was feeling pretty sick last night, but the immune system appears to be kicking in.

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

I feel I've eaten too many cherries. I feel they're revolting inside...

[Frieda]

No but I have heard people order a 'flat white'. :confused: I am quite confused now.
a flat white?? never heard of that, maybe it's a cultural thing?

[auntie aubrey]

No but I have heard people order a 'flat white'. :confused: I am quite confused now.

that's paint. you're not supposed to drink that.

[Frieda]

^definitely a cultural thing. we don't drink paint here.

[12"razormix]

you bake improper cookies! :mad:

[lukkucairi]

I feel sad and violated and stupid and frustrated. thieves broke into our warehouse over the weekend and stole a bunch of our tools - welders, oxy/acetylene setup, plasma torch, power tools.

[Frieda]

^^ who, me?? :confused: which ones?


^ oh no :(:( i hope the discovery channel crew doesn't have anything to do with it?? aw man, *hugs*

[lukkucairi]

^nah, the crew were fabulous - no worries there - it's just the warehouse district and shit like this happens out there.

we were lucky in a big way because even though they made off with thousands of dollars worth of tools, they left the audio equipment - that would have cost far, far more to replace - and they didn't trash the Jelly at all. I've lived in places where the burglars would fwk your shit up in addition to ripping you off, but these guys were just looking for stuff that would be quick to pawn.

we're all really sad but the community's pulling together - we can't get a security system installed by the end of today so we're having a mass sleepover with people and dogs and music there tonight - what an excuse for a party, eh?

:o

[Frieda]

just don't forget to lock the doors of your house.. who knows where they'll show up next.. :(

nice excuse for a party indeed :D

[brightpearl]

Aw, that's a bummer, Lulu! Insurance...?
Prolly not.

But I'm glad the jelly is okay and that they didn't take it...My apartment was broken into several years ago, and in addition to all the electronics/computer, they took this lamp that I made.

I thought it was funny that they apparently liked it. The jelly would make a far, far cooler lamp. :D

[Brynn]

Bummer Lukku - I'm so sorry that happened to you.
As i told my husband today right after we missed the last flight home out of Newark (train was delayed and we were stupid and had only allotted three hours to get from Manhattan to Newark airport for the last flight to Portland until Wednesday) "everyone should have our problems. We have no real problems." We're in good health. Nobody has stolen anything from us. Kids are fine and being taken care of by neighbors. Now, the guy we happened to check in with at the same time - he was mad. He'd left his car in their lot here and now it was so damaged he couldn't open the door to his car.

So I am delighted to report that we are currently in a Best Western in New Jersey, overlooking a used car lot, and what looks suspiciously like an adjacent dump.
With some imagination, it could even be said that we have an excellent view of the "pond."
And we're on standby for a 5 am flight, which, I'm told, has a huge drop-out rate, so we have a reasonable chance, maybe. Could be worse. It occurs to me that we could possibly be stuck here for days like the guy that we talked to at the shuttle stop is. But there are vending machines and life is pretty good. :)
Besides, New York was way too fun, and if this hadn't happened, I might not have been quite so happy to go home. Now we'll be appropriately stoked.

[lukkucairi]

brynnie, hope you're home safe by now!

I am at the warehouse again - working on my projects is the only thing that makes me feel better about the break in. staying here tonight as well- no security yet, no power. got our dogs, cellphones, and blunt instrument weapons :p though I doubt we will be fwked with tonight either

I feel like i'm strapped to an emotional rollercoaster but I also feel like something good will come out of all of this eventually.

[Hyakujo's Fox]

I feel lulukhaki is quite resilient.

[brightpearl]

I feel like I need to quit this one particular thing. If I could let myself do it half-assed, I could do it, but I can't. It's either be whole-assed, which I do not have the means or will to do, or quit.

I think I need to take the luxury of being unreliable, just in this one area.

[Odbe]

Wow! It IS a cultural thing!
Flat white on Wikipedia (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Flat_white)
I had no idea the terminology of coffee is different in America and Europe.

[Hyakujo's Fox]

Wow! It IS a cultural thing!
Flat white on Wikipedia (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Flat_white)
I had no idea the terminology of coffee is different in America and Europe.

But if they call a flat white a caffe latte, what do they call a caffe latte?

[madasacutsnake]

I dunno. But in Geneva it's a renverse.

[Frieda]

koffie verkeerd.. means wrong coffee :D

[T.I.P.]

My grandmother could probably answer this. She once mentioned that she wanted to write a book on coffee terminology around the world. I will ask her this weekend when I visit her upstate.



I like to bring my Gramma up in many a conversation. Is that a problem? No, thank you very much! :mad:

[michaelG]

I feel as though Jesus has chosen me to be a messenger of God. I also feel I will be persecuted for my appointed position as a manifestation of God, but like all great catalysts for change, I must look fear in the eye and march forward to fulfill my destiny.

[Frieda]

god is a manatee

[trisherina]

I feel the relief of brain clearage via fermented grape consumption, fine dining and decision making followed by a good long sleep. WEWT!

[lukkucairi]

I feel exhausted - hope I can sleep on the drive to wyoming today :o

[Frieda]

i feel totally weirded out by everyone i know. nothing is the same anymore. i've seen it all, tasted it all, know what it's like to be like that, and still i am totally weirded out. i wonder if i've ever been that irrational.

maybe seeing the truth really is more painful than being hurt all the time.

[lukkucairi]

maybe seeing the truth really is more painful than being hurt all the time.

I wouldn't say more painful, but definitely weirder.


http://www.markwang.com/log/images/take_the_red_pill.jpg

[trisherina]

*yawn* I feel profoundly unchallenged.

[Brynn]

I feel overwhelmingly challenged, and just not up to it without at least getting a full night's sleep. *yawn*

[trisherina]

Have a good seep -- I'll send you some vacation vibes. :cool:

[michaelG]

I feel bittersweet that whitey is now reaping all that he has sown.

[Stephi_B]

I feel air-kissed(*) and it feels wonderful :) :) :) :)

(*) Made up that word for lack of an English expression,
I mean getting a kiss from someone transmitted via the air ;)
(in a tremendously sweet fashion in this particular case!! :))

[Hyakujo's Fox]

I'm afraid we already have that word.

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[brightpearl]

I'm afraid too.

[T.I.P.]

i feel restless.

[Marcus Bales]

You make me feel like a natural woman.

[brightpearl]

i feel restless.

Awww, I was rooting for you feeling Susan by now. She's been back on the market for several days -- you'd better get on the stick.

So to speak.

[T.I.P.]

:eek:

no, i don't think it's going to be that kind of party, thank you very much :rolleyes:

[brightpearl]

What?
Maybe now would be a good time to take up baseball.
I'm just sayin.
:D

[Jack Flanders]

Thanks Marcus. I had my reasons. Think positive!

[Stephi_B]

I'm afraid we already have that word.

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Nah, not exactly what I meant ;)


I feel fine :)

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

blow someone a kiss

[lukkucairi]

I feel like poop :mad:

[brightpearl]

^:(
Looloo?
;)

fresia and a neck rub?
http://www.dissidentvox.com/mainpagepix/1fresia.jpg
http://farm2.static.flickr.com/1384/538040693_71e0c2654b.jpg

[lukkucairi]

^ aahh the lovebird neckrub is JUST what I needed :D

[michaelG]

I feel fresh and ready to take on whitey in a battle of wits.

[Marcus Bales]

Thanks Marcus. I had my reasons. Think positive!

Reasons not required. It's all in fun.

[Marcus Bales]

I feel fresh and ready to take on whitey in a battle of wits.

Too bad you're only half armed.

[Brynn]

I feel like giving racists some random negative attention.

[trisherina]

I feel like I could go back to the tiny happy parrotlet gettin a head scratch and go from there.

http://farm2.static.flickr.com/1384/538040693_71e0c2654b.jpg

[lukkucairi]

I had a massage today and I feel much better :)

[Peregrine]

Like I'm standing in the eye of a hurricane. The storm swirling all around, and unable to do anything about it.

[Marcus Bales]

I feel a sharp pain in my left knee.

[Peregrine]

Patellofemoral Pain Syndrome (http://www.aafp.org/afp/991101ap/2012.html)

[lukkucairi]

I feel like buying LED tea lights online.

[Marcus Bales]

I feel like lashing out -- anyone have a good target handy?

[lukkucairi]

http://img153.imageshack.us/img153/1838/crochetnecklaceus9.jpg

I feel like this necklace may not be "me" after all

[Marcus Bales]

good target, though

[Frieda]

^^ i borrowed a book about knitting and crafts and god knows what from my mother, it's from 1972 and it has a similar necklace in it, except that it is worn on the back there. a backnecklace or something. it looks like a giant dreamcatcher.

[Marcus Bales]

I feel splanchnic, oh so splanchnic, it's so splanchnic how splanchnic I feel!

[Frieda]

i feel pretty pissed off because since midnight there's been a crew of 20 people having a street party with loud turkish music, i call the police, they tell me they won't come, then the neighbor across the street comes on to his balcony and shouts he's going to kill everybody, holding what looks like a gun, i call the emergency number, they send a police car over, dude calms down and goes inside, and there's STILL a crew of 20 people on the street yelling and being drunk.

it's now 3 am and i cannot sleep because i can hear them even though i am wearing my super duper all-sounds-blocking earplugs. even though guns are scary shit and i do not approve of my neighbor across the street having one, i have to admit i sympathize with his goal. if i could kill with the powers of my mind i probably would have by now.

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

The same thing is happening here, except for the Turkish music. And I've got no earplugs. Arrgh! :mad:

[Frieda]

ha, i was wondering what you were doing here at this time of the, eh, night :D

does this pan-european synchronicity also include a neighbor going mental on your side?

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

No. I'm going mental. :o

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

Luckily, I don't have a gun.

[Frieda]

ohhh, are you the one shouting from the balcony??

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

Yes, the one mad enough to try and outshout the music. Futile and pathetic, by the way.

[Frieda]

:D it's bad, isn't it?

they're driving up and down the street here now with a car, screeching tyres and stuff like that.

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

Ah! Than that's worse than here.

[Frieda]

well at least the music has stopped here.

i thought the gun was pretty bad too.. if it was really a gun he was holding.

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

Now this is unbelievable! Here, the police showed up and they turned the music down...

Here, it's only the police, the hunters, the maffia and the insane that can own guns.

[Frieda]

here too! he's from the gold chained gypsy drugs maffia, to use a proper stereotype.


i'm happy for you that they turned the music down! :) are they sending the drunk people away too? because that's what they forgot to do here!

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

I don't know what they did, I was reading the posts that have accumulated since my last login, but now when I look out I can't see or hear anyone.

:) They're gone! :)

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

Well, and so is my sleep.

[Frieda]

heh yeah. i'm going to give it a try though-- have to get up in a couple of hours again..

good luck with your sleep ysa :)

[lukkucairi]

I feel rather drunk, and I'm in Wyoming...

[Frieda]

ok-- get your ass on the street, play turkish music, gather a crowd and wait for a neighbor to go mental!

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

I can't go to sleep now as I usually get up at five o'clockish.

And besides, now I can hear the really massive concert the crickets are giving... I predict the pheasants will be up in 15 minutes too.

I think I'll go and read some trashy book.

[lukkucairi]

oh, I'm drunk in Wyoming again...

I feel rather let down and disappointed :(

it's not all I thought it would be.

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

I feel with you.

Here, have something good:

http://www.adorablegiftbaskets.com/media/candy-parade-gifts

[lukkucairi]

necco wafers!

aaah, it's all better :p

[T.I.P.]

i feel that san francisco is a great city, i could probably live there and be comfortable.

The food is absolutely fantastic, we were happily surprised by many a random spot that we went to.

It's refreshingly cool there, even in the summer, which is good if you like to maintain a fashionable wardrobe all year round.

When the fog rolls in it creates a strange and almost eerie quality of light.

Downside: the city literally shuts down around 2am every day

[Brynn]

So how's rock n' roll life? It sounds like you're getting sucked in!

[T.I.P.]

nah, twas just a business trip

fun though :)

[T.I.P.]

i feel like i need to clean my apartment in order to feel grounded again

[brightpearl]

Naw, the ground takes care of itself.

But still, yeah, maybe you should clean your apartment.
http://debragalant.typepad.com/debra_galant_explains_the/margots_messy_room.jpg

I like your li'l pink bedspread, though. It reminds me of taffy.

[brightpearl]

I just got yelled at in front of my son and it feels really awful.

[Brynn]

I feel like throwing some of this at whoever did that, but I won't. I'll just show it to you:
http://img160.echo.cx/img160/5867/swlawnfertilizer2th.jpg

Here, these are really good for you. Sorry, but they only come in "Life Size":
http://saragregory.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/03/img_2067.JPG

[brightpearl]

^Ah, ginormous multigrain squirrel cookies make the world go round.

And maybe when they go stale, you can use them to club a squirrel who is acting cruelly in front of a small, impressionable, defenseless squirrel.
:rolleyes:

[Frieda]

i feel unsatisfied somehow

in the brain department

[Frieda]

^Ah, ginormous multigrain squirrel cookies make the world go round.

And maybe when they go stale, you can use them to club a squirrel who is acting cruelly in front of a small, impressionable, defenseless squirrel.
:rolleyes:

like dwarf bread.


you know i never dared to eat any cookies or cereal or chocolate easter bunnies or anything shaped like an animal.. i thought i would be eating one alive.

[MoJoRiSin]

When I was young we sat at a big table with a table cloth and the whole bit for a couple of years so we could learn our manners.
I used to put the chunks of meat in the pockets of my smock when it seemed that no one was watching... and flush them later but one time I forgot and my mom found the meat in the washer
this is when I was around 5 years old.

[brightpearl]

I see.
And how did that make you feel?
http://www.public.asu.edu/~jmlynch/273/images/freud.jpg

[MoJoRiSin]

well right now i am LMFAO
thank you bright pearl
you are brilliant
beyong measure !!

[MoJoRiSin]

id ego penis envy and all the rest
read it and weep ;)

[Frieda]

i feel pretty pissed off because since midnight there's been a crew of 20 people having a street party with loud turkish music, i call the police, they tell me they won't come, then the neighbor across the street comes on to his balcony and shouts he's going to kill everybody, holding what looks like a gun, i call the emergency number, they send a police car over, dude calms down and goes inside, and there's STILL a crew of 20 people on the street yelling and being drunk.

it's now 3 am and i cannot sleep because i can hear them even though i am wearing my super duper all-sounds-blocking earplugs. even though guns are scary shit and i do not approve of my neighbor across the street having one, i have to admit i sympathize with his goal. if i could kill with the powers of my mind i probably would have by now.

guess who were back last night turning up the music extra loud to make the angry neighbor come out again?? that's right. only this time the police did show up when i called them. 2.30 am and it was already quiet!

pfft.

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

^ Ha! It's good you didn't give up until they came.

Here it was quiet due to rains, floods and cold weather.

[Frieda]

maybe it helped that i told the police that i was going to throw the flowerpots down from my balcony if they didn't chase those guys away :rolleyes:

[Frieda]

oh i got a call from them tonight, the police-- nice man, says they don't have enough people to check on the town center. they do have people tonight because they have a very important action going on tonight (i assume it's checking if people aren't smoking in the pubs, VERY important *cough*) but it's raining like ass here tonight so i don't think there'll be any folk standing outside anyway.

boo. :mad:

[brightpearl]

^I'm sorry for your predicament, but "raining like ass" made me laugh really hard.

[Frieda]

try and find the "hot as ass" and "cold as ass" threads too, might add even more to your good mood :p

[brightpearl]

You know what sucks?
Having somebody yell very mean things at you, and then apologize profusely, and then yell at you again for the same thing, which continues to not be your fault, a few days later. And then apologize profusely so you can worry about whether or not to believe it again.

That is just pretty damned crappy.
:(

I feel like I've had enough of that.
:mad:

[Frieda]

3 years since i quit and i still feel like smoking.

does this craving ever go away??

[topcat]

no

[T.I.P.]

it's been 5 here, and the answer is still no. The frequency of the craving diminishes though.

[lukkucairi]

I feel like crawling out of my skin

and yeah, I could use a smoke. it's been a few years..

[Peregrine]

I'm allergic to tobacco. Maybe I'm just lucky that way. If I were to start smoking again, I would get used to it eventually, but at first I would turn interesting shades of green. Whenever I get a craving, I'm quickly reminded how sick it would make me feel, and the craving is preferable to feeling nauseous.

Also, I'm feeling paranoid today.

[Frieda]

well i have that too, i'm not allergic but with the 1st cig i would cough my asthmatic lungs out and have to run to the toilet. even though i know how it will go, i still crave a smoke! :rolleyes:

[Odbe]

Some years ago I used to talk regularly to a 15 year old who went on the same bus as me in the afternoons. She had been a smoker since she was 12 and resolved to quit cold turkey, to save what was left of her health. Every day we counted the days she'd been without a smoke and we celebrated the one month mark, then two. Then she moved away and I lost contact. All this talk of quitting is making me wonder where she is and how many days it is since her last smoke.

[lukkucairi]

I have an earache and I feel like poo again :(

[T.I.P.]

^sorry bout that Lukku. I'm feeling sad too. It has dawned on me that no matter where i decide to live, part of me will feel like it is far away from home. I've always known this "intellectually". I've also experienced the pain of being uprooted from a place quite a few times. This time is different though- there is a simultaneous sense of being at home and away from home.

The descriptive adjectives that come to mind are "bittersweet", "comforting","melancholy".

[J.W.]

I'm feeling like I should make more of an emotional commitment to this forum.

So I'm doing me some commenting to feel more engage. ed.

[lukkucairi]

I feel, tentatively, better - I suffered the headache for about 36 hours. I just woke up again and I'm a little afraid to move around in case it comes crashing back down on me again.

[lukkucairi]

I'm feeling like I should make more of an emotional commitment to this forum.

So I'm doing me some commenting to feel more engage. ed.

I feel like I haven't seen you for a long time, J.W...

[lukkucairi]

I feel tired, so I think I'll go to sleep now.

[Odbe]

^ Me too, good idea.

[brightpearl]

I feel like if I could feel like this, I would feel okay.

A world of trials,
and if the cherry blossoms,
it simply blossoms

Issa

[michaelG]

I feel grateful that I am not white. I feel amused that white people lay out on sand in order to become darker skinned. I feel a sense of justice that this often results in leather-like skin and melanoma in later stages of life.

I feel equally amused when I see white soccer mom's in Escalades paying 150 to fill their tanks. I feel powerful when I catch white women glancing in awe at my crotch in the grocery store.

Overall, I feel pretty damn superior in my blackness.

[zero]

... in the grocery store

you're a grocer?!! o FANTASTIC!! why didn't you say??


WE HAVE A GROCER IN OUR MIDST!!!


:D this is great!


how much are your peas today please?

[zero]

it's so obvious now!



the G in michaelG.... he's a Grocer!! and a GREENgrocer at that!



HOORAY! he will be our purveyor of fresh fruit and vegetables henceforth

[lukkucairi]

oh no - are we going to have to have a GROCE-OFF again?

the grocing hierarchy has been upset!

[brightpearl]

OH thank you so much Ezra!!
WHY didn't I see it before?!?!
It explains so much about his misuse of apostrophes (http://www.flickr.com/groups/77173807@N00/)!!

What a relief to realize he's just studiously abiding by the labor union laws!
http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2286/2436190153_01484fcd67.jpg

[brightpearl]

P.S. Also, one lays a towel out on the sand in order to lie on it.

Transitive vs. intransitive, you know. Grocer or not, there's just no excuse for that.

[T.I.P.]

could i get 3 tomatoe's and some mozzorella? thank's

[brightpearl]

:eek:
Do mine ear's decieve me?

Oh, I get it...your just messing with me.

[brightpearl]

My friend who was my brother in a past life (and possibly this one; it's hard to say) explained it all to me and now I feel much better.

It has to do with kaleidescopes, you see, and how hard they are to pin down.
http://bindweed.com/magicmirror/kaleidoscope-collage.gif

[trisherina]

I feel pretty neutral towards my greengrocer. Thanks for all the great service over the years; may you profit well!

[Frieda]

i felt so ridiculously bored at work today-- no goddamn work emails at all
well one but that was in the morning. and only 2 phone calls, no people at my desk. some days just take forever!

[lukkucairi]

anxious and upset, and upset about being upset (violating rule #1 (http://www.zefrank.com/bulletin_new/showpost.php?p=397308&postcount=28))

bah, this sucks :(

gotta put my happy face on and go into work - not impressed with that.

[Frieda]

i've just been asked for a motivational speaking gig at some upper management seminar from my employer--

only, i don't feel very motivated right now. not at all, actually. oh, the irony :rolleyes:

should i do it? 80 people, ffs. i HAT audiences, i HAT upper management and i feel very worried about what will happen if i do it.

[Stephi_B]

How much it is expected of you to go there? I mean can you say "no" w/o any problems?
Do you feel you can give them the proper motivation bla?
Do you think you can get that thing through with a "I go there and kick ass this bloody audience of upper management tralalas! You want motivation? You get them up your asses?"
I HAT talks myself, but the feeling afterwards is always worth it, and the more often you do it the easier it gets.
Could you maybe see that as something you do for yourself and not the audience, your bosses, the "motivation" or whom/whatever?

:)

[Frieda]

it's probably my only chance on getting some extra euroids on my paycheck at the end of this year, given the fact i haven't made any money for the company being sick and all that.

i'll call the dude tomorrow and find out if there's a theme or something.

[YsaPur EsChomuw]

Go for it, Frieda!

[Frieda]

:)

[lukkucairi]

OK, I feel better now.

2700m of fiber optic filament in the mail today!

:D