warm goat milk.

i recently switched food supplements and now the freaky vivid dreams started again. lukku, are you on a supplement something too?

http://science.slashdot.org/story/10...ing-Like-a-Log

I started taking fish oil with borage oil in it, and that seems to have helped my whole system calm down, including my sleeping (though the dreams have been really persistent and weird lately, even for me). seriously though, the goat milk is the shiznit for making me sleepy, at least for my particular metabolism.

I think at this point the weird dreams I have are just habitual. I've gotten so used to working stuff out while I sleep that it just happens, and I remember them when I wake up a lot of times without even trying. I've been freaked out during the day over the whole mother-with-cancer thing (she starts radiation therapy on the 16th) and it seems like the more I have to worry about during the day, the weirder my dreams get at night. I also did a pretty intense meditation retreat a couple of weeks ago, and since then my sleep has been very deep and dream-filled. I don't know if it's the meditation, the fish oil, the worry over my mother, or some combination of all three that's been doing this to me.

been thinking about you, Frieda, hope you're well :)

im suspecting the fish oil, didnt take it yesterday, no vivid dreams this morning. i stopped dreaming once the mother-with-cancer thing happened, was too exhausted to dream i guess. i have a bit more energy now, i decided that i am going to do some stuff i like, find a hobby or something.

That was brilliant!

Ambien. I have two kinds. Time release, that helps me sleep through the whole night, or the ones I call "Knock your ass out quick". I rarely use these, only if I have to travel. Usually exercise, a long walk, helps me. I have made a pact with myself to make a "worry list" write down everything I am concerned about, and tell myself I will deal with it the next day. Suprisingly enough, I don't toss and turn all night about it. I just deal with it the next day.

i sept all day and now i can't seep

"[For this work] we have to thank the instigation of the former Russian ambassador to the electoral court of Saxony, Count Kaiserling, who often stopped in Leipzig and brought there with him the aforementioned Goldberg, in order to have him given musical instruction by Bach. The Count was often ill and had seepless nights. At such times, Goldberg, who lived in his house, had to spend the night in an antechamber, so as to play for him during his insomnia. ... Once the Count mentioned in Bach's presence that he would like to have some clavier pieces for Goldberg, which should be of such a smooth and somewhat lively character that he might be a little cheered up by them in his seepless nights. Bach thought himself best able to fulfill this wish by means of Variations, the writing of which he had until then considered an ungrateful task on account of the repeatedly similar harmonic foundation. But since at this time all his works were already models of art, such also these variations became under his hand. Yet he produced only a single work of this kind. Thereafter the Count always called them his variations. He never tired of them, and for a long time seepless nights meant: 'Dear Goldberg, do play me one of my variations.' Bach was perhaps never so rewarded for one of his works as for this. The Count presented him with a golden goblet filled with 100 louis-d'or. Nevertheless, even had the gift been a thousand times larger, their artistic value would not yet have been paid for."

i cant seep because theres a whistle in my nose and i cant seem to get rid of it

^vulcan arsegrip makes em fall aseep