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Cr.Box · 01-28-2003, 09:19 PM

August 19th, 1988. "Yesterday seemed to slip by without notice. today I barely remember getting up. I am getting this swelling notion that someday I will need to change. Had the process dream again last night.

August 22, 1988. "Ran into M. She said I looked like shit. I looked into the mirror in the cafe and hardly recognized myself. Waves of nauseau washed over me."

August 23, 1988. "walked to the corner today to get some coffee, an older man was digging in the dumpster for food. His wife was standing next to him staring at me. I remembered how much I miss being missed."

August 27, 1988. "I didn't sleep at all last night. She came over around 1 o'clock, drunk, to remind me how I ****ed it all up. Then she left.

August 31, 1988: "Seemed to have lost the last couple of days. I remember seeing her that night. I remember the fight. Then it all went black. So black. A bottomless pit. My answering machine light is flashing. Afraid to listen to it."

September 2, 1988: "September. A new month, a new bottle, a new perspective. ***k her. ***k this, I'm out here. I'll show her my "inabilty to identify emotion" I mean what a stupid message. Dumb whore."

September 3, 1988: Who would have guessed that moving out of the city would be such a bitch! Now I'm stuck here with all this crap, and I can't even afford to go to the bar anymore. Maybe I'll call her.

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01-28-2003, 09:19 PM	#6
Cr.Box monkey Join Date: Oct 2002 Location: Colorado Posts: 26	August 19th, 1988. "Yesterday seemed to slip by without notice. today I barely remember getting up. I am getting this swelling notion that someday I will need to change. Had the process dream again last night. August 22, 1988. "Ran into M. She said I looked like shit. I looked into the mirror in the cafe and hardly recognized myself. Waves of nauseau washed over me." August 23, 1988. "walked to the corner today to get some coffee, an older man was digging in the dumpster for food. His wife was standing next to him staring at me. I remembered how much I miss being missed." August 27, 1988. "I didn't sleep at all last night. She came over around 1 o'clock, drunk, to remind me how I **ed it all up. Then she left. August 31, 1988: "Seemed to have lost the last couple of days. I remember seeing her that night. I remember the fight. Then it all went black. So black. A bottomless pit. My answering machine light is flashing. Afraid to listen to it." September 2, 1988: "September. A new month, a new bottle, a new perspective. k her. **k this, I'm out here. I'll show her my "inabilty to identify emotion" I mean what a stupid message. Dumb whore." September 3, 1988: Who would have guessed that moving out of the city would be such a bitch! Now I'm stuck here with all this crap, and I can't even afford to go to the bar anymore. Maybe I'll call her.