random confessions

[TheGinchiest]

I grew up in Texas... and when this happened I was 15... I'd been doing community theater for 4 years...

By that time, I was basically 'constant cast member x'... initially a novelty probably ("Ooooh... look at the little guy playin' actor-man..."), but I was headlining plays by the time I was 13.

Anyway, I was 15 and we were doing a performance of 'Butterflies are Free'... or at least we were ramping up quickly to opening night. I played a side-character... a one or two scene laywer, but I was mostly crew.

One week before opening night, I just stopped going. No more rehearsals, I didn't answer my phone, and even when my cast-mates drove 15 miles outside of town to talk to me... I refused to open the door. I just sat there, in full view of the window... Ignoring them. I didn't attend any of the performances, and I never went back to that troupe again.

I have no idea why. I wasn't scared, I wasn't angry... I was just... 'done', I guess. I kept doing school plays for the next few years... but at a different school in a different town, and then in a different state altogether.

The worst part was that my best friend (since we were seven) Nathan was headlining the play... and I just left him and my closest friends... basically my family... high and dry. With no explanation.

When I was 23, I tracked Nathan down... he'd gone to the college he'd planned to, and a quick Google search got me his e-mail address.

I sent him an apology... he thanked me, said all was forgiven... we did the 'we'll keep in touch' line... but that never went anywhere.

Man....

Are we supposed to be a little sad after doing these?

*a little sad*