just one thing I have to tell you

[Brynn]

First I'd ask for total and complete forgiveness, a blanket amnesty for the weeks and months to come, as well as for the past.

I'd ask him whom he would like to marry after I'm gone.

I'd ask for the prettiest, most impossible lies, and tell them too.

My last words will be "where are the car keys?" This will make him laugh, and give him a good story to embellish.

He'll open a suitcase with a list of people to call, the phone numbers. Funeral arrangements will have been made, but he'll have to call to finalize them under the name of "Tennesee Broomtassle." There will be a bottle of Oban in there to drink while he makes the calls. He'll have a tape recorder in there with a recording I made months earlier telling him how much I love him, and where I hid the car keys with the song "Should I Stay Or Should I Go?" playing in the background.