Atheists

[Pebbles]

ok, heres how it went. i was raised to be religious. when i was told god was fake.. i'd fight it with every argument i knew... and i was pretty damn good too. and then reality hit. i was reading the bible... and i opened my eyes. at 15 i found all these hypocricies... and i know... ump-teen men writing the bible, there is going to be some.... but not when its a damned quote from "jesus" im not saying there was never jesus... i just dont believe in the whole belief of "god" i have all these questions, reasoning in my head on why there isnt one. it just pisses me off. and after all these years, after blindly following what my bible told me... nothing changed for the better. i had never seen any "miracles" all these people talked of. i would pray and pray and pray for some kind of relief, some kind of comfort to help me get through my day... something to make me stop trying to kill myself while my nephews slept. i would try to overdose on tylonal 3's /w codine.. and ya know what happend... i was out of it for a week... that was it.. and after i pulled outta it... i was beat by my mother for passing out from exaustion. after giving up so much, fighting so hard.. it always seemed like i had these unanswered prayers... while everyone talked of this great deed their lord and savior had done. i would sit in my room and review my bible till i fell asleep to only wake up in two hours to go to start my day. then it dawned on me... organized religion is nothing but a comfort... and then i took sociology, that killed my christianity side completely. "The only difference between God and Adolf Hitler is that God is more proficient at genocide." not to include... christianity was just all the things these people liked out of judaism, modified it, added in their own little rulings and filed as a new religion... its one of the newest religions!!!!! i just cant believe in something that shows no proof at all. i may be wrong, but im sure as hell not wasting my time with something if im not