The "I finally get it" thread

[Klynne]

I need no sympathy here. I will tell my story, then you need to tell yours.

This is where you post something you know that you have been doing, or let happen, but you go along with it, because it is easier to go along with then face it. Then you get it.

I have been with someone two years (Mad as a Snake, you warned me) that I have tried to make happy. I have learned, you can't make someone else happy. He always has had something negative to say, and can be a raging idiot. He has threatened to leave in the past, and it has reduced me to a crying, bawling mess, begging for forgiveness, and he has agreed to stay with me. Lucky me.

Tonight, he went off on me about the refrigerator. You know that little vent piece that is at the bottom? Well, it was not where it should have been. I always knock it off accidentally when I clean, or whatever. That is neither here nor, there. But, because of this, I am stupid, I am an idiot, and he was going to leave because of my foolishness. I said, fine, "If you can't live with this, I understand completely if you want to leave. I don't know why you get so upset by this, but I can understand if you want to go" I don't think it is about the refrigerator, I think he really wants to leave, but, he wants me to kick his arse out.

And then again, he said he was going to leave. And I told him that I understood why he wanted to move, and that it was fine by me, that my behavoir was unforgiveable, and no hard feelings Then he freaks, he said that I wanted him out because I have another boyfriend. Okay then.Then he stomped off. I was hoping he was going to leave, but I checked on him and he was asleep. So, one thing that I am happy about is the thought of him leaving does not reduce me to tears. But now, I am going to have to kick him out. I hate having to be the bad person, but, I really would rather be alone.