5 points in this series.

[beckstra]

1)

Today, I saw Stacy. She was my best friend in high school. I haven't seen her in the last three years at least. Not since two months before I graduated. She was supposed to graduate with me, but she dropped out of school and dropped completely out of sight. I went to call her at her folks house once, but her father said to me, "Stacy no longer lives here, I suggest you call her," and before I could ask him for her number, he hung up.

I can't tell you how much that devistated me. She was litterally my *best* friend. I saw her in my mall today. At first I wasn't sure, wasn't gonna say anything...but I knew if I didn't I'd hate myself for not finding out. She was pushing a stroller, had a man and a toddler following her. I did it anyway. When she turned around, I about jumped out of my skin. I nearly started crying.

We exchanged hugs and phone numbers. I'm gonna try to do something with her this weekend. I can't wait. I'm so excited.

http://www.vagrantcafe.com/forums/at...&postid=328548

2)

The district manager's coming in tomorrow. So not only do I have to look presentable (which I usually do at work), I have to be at the store at 8:30. I've also had to memorize a buttload of stupid numbers and loss prevention tips. Not that the LP tips aren't good to know...but geeze. I'm not twelve, I don't need to study for a pop quiz. THERE SHOULDN'T BE A POP QUIZ!!!

http://www.vagrantcafe.com/forums/at...&postid=328553

3)

Yesterday my brother-in-law accused me of being obsessed. He acts like all I ever talk about are men. So there's this guy at Albertsons? So he's cute? So I talk about him a lot? Does that make me obsessed with all of them? I observe, not obsess.

He was right in the fact that it's typical conversation for me these days though.

The thing is, I've finally resigned to the fact that I'm not gonna be in a relationship for another five years or so. I mean, I want to get out of debt first. I want to get a car, pay off a few things... I want to get credentialed. I want to find a church and settle in, start a routine. I just don't think a relationship is gonna help move all those things along.

So what do I do? I play around in the meantime. Is that really so bad?

http://www.vagrantcafe.com/forums/at...&postid=328549

4)

I feel a lot more focused these days. I mean, I recognize it especially when it comes to my Sunday school class. I think I started out with good intentions and a shell of a plan, however it wasn't filled with vision, and thus I had no focus.

That leadership retreat really helped me to reevaluate how I was going about things, physically and spiritually.

An associate pastor friend of mine said something to me that seemed very churchy, but really hit me.

"I don't stand up in front of them very often, so when I did, I made sure I had it *all* together. As I was getting it *all* together, I realized that I was cheating everyone out of my *all.* My *all* wasn't there when I was standing in the shadows, when I was watching the pastors struggle for words, when the kids were going off on their own to visit the bathroom...it was a different kind of integrity I didn't have. I didn't give my *all,* *all* the time."

I about broke down and gave my life to Jesus all over again. (j/k) Nah, I just took some time to mull over it, and this time it kinda sunk in. So I've really been taking things seriously since then.

The results have been unreal.

http://www.vagrantcafe.com/forums/at...&postid=328559

5)

This has all been very amuck-ish. I apologize.

Though, feel free to respond as you will. Life is good. I can take it.

http://www.vagrantcafe.com/forums/at...&postid=328561