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soory about this, i'm feeling pretty crap at the mo. it's late & i can't sleep, keep crying, probably pms. just feel like eveything's going wrong in my life, can't cope financially, next year's going to be even tighter financially with travel costs & enrollment fees for uni. i'm going to be leaving the house at 5am some days to get back at 8 pm meaning i'll see leo for all of 30 mins if i'm lucky. just realised for the first time that my best mate doen't adore me because i make her laugh (she has another bast mate who lives in the same area as her & he does that) i'm her best mate just because "i've know her forever". my dog is depressed because i've not taken him on a ny 'proper' walks for days, my cat's in heat for the zillionth time this year, my mum keeps making hurtful comments about how i've made a bit of a mess of things in my life. i'm going to be 24 this month & i know my dad won't call me, for the 7th year running. my son's dad is planning on coming to live with me as of next month, this which i found out a week ago, just as a new relationship with someone else was looking promising, so i ended it & i'm 99% sure the father will change his mind in a week or two because it's "all too complicated". i don't know where i'm heading, i want what's best for leo, without sacrificing my own life. fuuuuck.